Thursday, October 04, 2007

My ordination exam, for your reading pleasure

Before I post this mammoth, something bears repeating....
It never fails. Around the time stuff needs to be turned in to the BOM, I always get a lot of hits on this particular post (my original probationary questions posted in 2005) with referrals from search engines with the questions word for word in the search bar. I posted this with the hopes of spurring on sluggish minds and sharing ideas and creating conversation about doctrine and theology. Every one of the answers is original. I hope your BOM answers are too. It is too easy to cut and paste. God wants more from you than that. Wade into your own Spirit and retrieve something you can be proud of and stand by--be honest about your convictions. your own BOM will see through anything else.

Okay, now that that's clear. Here's what I've wrestled with over the past few months for the Oklahoma Board of Ordained Ministry.

Doctrinal Statement—Elder in Full Connection

I. Theology

1. How has the practice of ministry affected your experience and understanding of God?

Ministry has given me a greater understanding of the “shared truth” that is a product of organized religion. Just because something doesn’t resonate with me doesn’t mean that I discount it. This insight came to me one night when I was in conversation with another person on an internet message board about the value of “organized religion.” It seems that many who are my age accept it as a given that “organized religion” is flawed, corrupt, and dangerous, whereas “spirituality” is superior, incorruptible, and beneficial. I understand where this idea comes from, and agree with some of the critique of organized religion, but my experience as a pastor has taught me that while we may arrive at some extremely profound personal insights about God by practicing individual spirituality, we arrive at much broader spiritual truths by participating in a communal spirituality (or, an “organized” religion).

Worshipping God, and especially designing and leading worship in a community, forces me to come to terms with other people’s thoughts and deep convictions about God. While the song “I’ll Fly Away,” may not resonate with my spiritual life, it does with some in my worshipping community, and thus is something with which I must wrestle. In an age when we typically approach spirituality like another commodity to be consumed,[1] this aspect of communal spirituality keeps me from picking and choosing only those aspects of faith life which are agreeable to my spiritual palate.

Ministry has also affected my experience of God by giving me more of a sense of accountability with regard to a daily practice of spiritual disciplines. This has been a recent development for me, and was brought on by a sense of conviction that I had when I would field prayer requests at our worship service. I am sure that people asking me to pray for their niece McKayla or their friend Ray would derive some sense of comfort from me lifting up their name during a pastoral prayer in worship, but I had a pang of guilt when I asked the congregation to be “keeping them in their prayers,” since I was not doing that myself. For the first half of my probationary period, my personal spiritual disciplines consisted of studying for the sermon and harkening back to the few times when I had actually sat down and meditated to say that I “practiced meditation.” I would also regularly pray before I began the process of sermon writing to ask for the Spirit’s guidance.

Finally, I decided that I needed to put some true effort and time into intercessory prayer and some other disciplines. My wife, Lara, supported me by joining me in this endeavor. The church people needed to have confidence that when they brought their prayers of concern and joy to their pastor, that prayer would be remembered throughout the week. I had the “novel” idea to bring home the Sunday bulletin, and on Mondays and Thursdays to read aloud the names of those listed on our prayer list. On other days throughout the week, we would read a devotional from the Alive Now publication or some other insightful literature that we had come across, we would watch a Nooma video together, we would meditate, or we would practice the “Order for Evening Praise and Prayer” from the Book of Worship. The practice of these disciplines has made our home life richer, and I feel closer and more in tune with the God whom I proclaim every Sunday. If it had not been for the hypocrisy I felt for not engaging in regular intercessory prayer in the practice of ministry, I most likely would not have arrived at this closer relationship with God.

2. What effect has the practice of ministry had on your understanding of humanity and the need for divine grace?

My experience in ministry has given me the perspective that humanity’s need for divine grace is not relegated to some bracketed experience of “justifying” grace. A strength of our Wesleyan heritage is the tradition of recognizing justifying grace along with prevenient and sanctifying grace. Humanity is in need of a broad and comprehensive understanding of a grace that is active and nurturing throughout their lives. God meets us in distinct ways throughout our lives, and through sanctifying grace, molds us into the Divine image. As we grow toward this image, the fruits of the Spirit become more and more manifested in our day to day lives.

Humanity is and always has been in the midst of a struggle between our true purpose as created beings who reflect God’s love with “holiness and happiness of heart”[2] and the misguided purposes that are influenced by our weakness in perceiving that Divine aim. This weakness influences and is influenced by ignorance, fear, exploitation, and oppression. Paul pointed to the “powers and principalities” that are manifestations of these human frailties in forms that seem to have worldly power and dominion. Divine grace opens our eyes to our intended purpose. This grace is not achieved or deserved, but given freely. God’s heart is overflowing with it, because God desires to be known, and our knowledge of our own nature facilitates our understanding of God. This free grace is received only by a heart open to its presence—this process is faith.

The overflowing grace of God’s Heart falls like rain on all of humanity. Some of us are hardened with hatred and lifeless with lethargy and grace seems to run off of them as rain fails to penetrate the ground in the desert. I have noticed from my own experience with grace that the fruits of grace are cultivated more fully if the soil of our hearts is tilled and fertilized with attentiveness and accountability. For this reason, I have suggested Covenant Discipleship Groups to my church, and we are embarking on a pilot group to test this ministry for our church at present. Humanity is forgetful about our dependence upon grace and we begin to believe that we achieve things or bear things on our own. We forget that the rain is what nourishes and provides the fruit. A regular accounting of grace in community, especially through small groups in the Wesleyan model, is a great way to keep God’s ever unfolding grace before us.

3. What effect has the practice of ministry had on your understanding of (a) the Lordship of Jesus Christ and (b) the work of the Holy Spirit?

The practice of ministry has deepened my understanding of the Lordship of Jesus Christ because it has given me the responsibility of proclaiming this Lordship over and above nationalism or consumerism or any other idol that our community sacrifices to in place of our Lord, Jesus Christ. Shortly after being appointed to Morris, I preached a sermon the week of the fourth of July called “the Declaration of Dependence.” During the Children’s sermon, I asked the kids if they knew the pledge of allegiance, and drew their attention to the American flag we have in our sanctuary. I then explained to them that God calls us to give our allegiance to Christ, and how much more powerful an allegiance this is than our national allegiance. In a faith where we believe “there is no longer Jew nor Greek…for we are one in Christ Jesus,” (Gal. 3:28),[3] I think it is especially pertinent in our era of hyper-nationalism to be prophetic about our citizenship in the Kingdom of God over and sometimes against our national identity and interests. To counter our national obsession with independence and individuality, I instead preached about the Biblical call to submit to God and recognize the interdependence that exists among God’s creation.

As the early Christians committed themselves to Christ as Lord and thus turned their attention to alleviating the woes of the powerless and dispossessed people of the Empire, I see the direction of Christ pointing me toward the same ends. The Lordship of Christ reigns in a Basileia where the world has been turned upside down, and the powers and principalities that dominate the earth have been shaken out. Christ directs his disciples to carry out the healing and preaching that will facilitate the unveiling of this reality “in our midst.”

I associate the term “Lord” with the spirit of God who liberated the Israelites from enslavement in Egypt. I also celebrate Paul’s correlation between the Lord and freedom in 2nd Corinthians 3:17, which states, “The Lord is the Spirit; but where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” If “Lord” is the name for the experience of liberation and for free life, then the name is misunderstood and brought into disrepute if it is interpreted in terms of masculine notions of rule. Instead of affirming a Lord who rules my life in a coercive manner, I celebrate Jesus Christ as the Lord who gives freedom. When I state that Jesus Christ is Lord, I am giving my loyalty to the Risen Christ. I am committing myself to be the best disciple I can be.

I appreciate what Douglass John Hall writes in an article on the Lordship of Christ,

If Jesus is to be anything more than another name, another historical mythic figure for us; if he is to become in any sense "Christ," "Saviour," "Lord"; if his name and his story are to arouse in us anything like "faith," then we shall have to encounter him and not merely some ideas about him…. Faith needs not only to hear about but in some real--if "different"--sense to "see" Jesus (John 12:21). [4]

This is the freedom that the Lordship of Christ inspires. Christ leads by example. I call Christ Lord because Christ goes first where he wants me to go. As I follow the Lord, Christ’s leadership becomes more clear to my eyes. As Paul says in 1 Corinthians 13:12, “For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known.”

Through my experience in ministry, I have come to know the work of the Holy Spirit through many facets. To begin with, I can remember a specific instance when I felt the pull of the Holy Spirit to go visit a woman in the hospital. I was in the middle of typing my sermon though, and was in the middle of some fruitful time when writing came pretty easily. I resolved to go visit the woman later that afternoon after I had finished some things around the house. When I got to the hospital, I found out that both she and the man who was across the hall from her room (also a church member) had both died an hour or so before I arrived. I didn’t know that the other man was in the hospital, but if I had followed the prompting of the Spirit, I would have seen that he was there in the hospital too, and would have been able to spend some time with them before they passed away.

The experience made me disappointed with myself, but also gave me great hope that the Spirit would indeed guide me in my ministry---all I had to do was follow the movement of the Spirit when I perceived it. Before my experience in the ministry, I connected with the idea of the Spirit as Life-Breath. I appreciated this understanding of the Holy Ruach because it was so dynamic and integral to my life. As I have grown in the ministry, I have come to also understand the Spirit as Paraclete: as the Counselor and Advocate and Helper whom Jesus refers to in the Gospel of John. Before, I experienced the Spirit as a Force in Nature, as I will describe in a later question. After ministry, I have also experienced the Spirit in the personal sense of which Jesus speaks. Though I was quite satisfied with my understanding of the Spirit before the ministry, my experience with the Spirit as Guide during the ministry has broadened my love for God.

4. The United Methodist Church holds that Scripture, tradition, experience, and reason are sources and norms for belief and practice but that the Bible is primary among them. What is your understanding of this theological position of the Church?

Throughout my life, I have thought of the Wesleyan quadrilateral as the legs of a chair. Each leg needs to be the same length in order for the chair to sit without that annoying “wobble.” In my seminary education, I learned that it would probably be more accurate to envision the scriptural source of our Christian faith as the hub of a wheel. The other three elements of tradition, experience, and reason are the spokes out to the wheel. Although all of the elements of the wheel are needed to keep the wheel spinning, each of the three “spokes” needs to connect in some way to the “hub.” The Holy Scriptures should be at the hub of the wheel because they are the stories of humanity. They speak about our core virtues: love, kindness, honor, and liberation. They also speak about our core struggles: vanity, idolatry, and greed.

The Bible points to everything necessary for our salvation. Scripture is our primary encounter with Jesus Christ, and in many cases it is a foundational aspect of our faith journey. Before I could read, I had memorized the Zacchaeus story in My First Bible[5] word for word thanks to my parent’s ritual of reading to me before going to bed. As a child in Sunday school I learned about the stories of Jesus and his encounters with his people. This formation shapes my encounter with the living Christ, who meets us in our everyday lives, and with the Holy Spirit, whom we encounter with every breath we take.

Our engagement with scripture is shaped by our tradition. The Book of Discipline sees tradition as the “passing on and receiving of the gospel among persons, regions, and generations [that] constitutes a dynamic element of Christian history.”[6] The Christian faith is illuminated by tradition in the way that a Biblical illumination gives color and expression to the verses that are written. As an undergraduate student, it was the study of Christian history and tradition that gave me deeper appreciation of my own faith. The accounts of Scripture are only the first chapters of the story of Christianity. Listening to the voices of the past and celebrating the customs that were shaped by them is an enriching element of practicing faith. Religious movements without the wellsprings of tradition oftentimes fall into the trap of over-indulging the sentiments of the present. Though our faith teaches us to be forward looking, filled with hope and expectations for the coming of God’s Reign, it is well served by understanding and celebrating our own roots. The critical study of our tradition also imparts humility in the expression of our Christian faith. If we are able to be reflective and penitent in the observation of tradition, we will be good witnesses to the grace of God.

Experience vivifies the core of the Christian faith and according to the Book of Discipline is much akin to tradition in that it is our own “personal tradition.” I think the Book of Discipline states well: “Our experience interacts with Scripture. We read Scripture in light of the conditions and events that help shape who we are, and we interpret our experience in terms of Scripture.”[7] As the truth of the Scriptures interacts with our experience of life, the core of the Christian faith becomes a “living faith.” In the community of believers, this element of Christian faith is shared and strengthened. We give testimony to the truth of Christian faith when we share our experience with others. By giving this testimony, our experience literally feeds and forms the experiences of others. My understanding of the Christian faith is not only built on my own experiences, but on the experiences of those with whom I have shared my life.

Though Christian faith is confirmed by reason, it is not exhausted by it. God gives us all our faculties to use in our faith quest. It delights me that our denomination affirms the use of reason to approach truth. The Book of Discipline states, “We seek nothing less than a total view of reality that is decisively informed by the promises and imperatives of the Christian gospel.”[8] Though our faculties of rational thought are sometimes not enough to comprehend the depth of God’s love, we endeavor to shine the light of our minds onto the expanses of God’s nature. As Job was instructed to consider the expansiveness of God’s wonderful creation in response to his questioning of his suffering, God intends for us to search out God’s ways in the world around us. God’s grace is confirmed by reason if we approach a scientific engagement with the world with humility.

God is a living God. Therefore, our methods of approach toward God are manifold. Everywhere we turn, we are given an opportunity to know our loving God in a new way. Our church is wise to uplift diverse paths to the realization of Christian faith.

5. How do you understand the following traditional evangelical doctrines: (a) repentance; (b) justification; (c) regeneration; and (d) sanctification? What are the marks of the Christian life?

I understand repentance, justification, regeneration, and sanctification to be facets of Divine grace that humans experience in varied, yet identifiable ways. A parable that Jesus uses to speak about Divine Grace that I believe captures all of these elements is Jesus’ parable of the father with two sons in Luke 15. The story also illustrates the chief mark of the Christian life: giving and receiving forgiveness.

Andrew Marr, a Benedictine monk who wrote an article about the “prodigal son” story on a website that I sometimes use to study for sermon writing, introduced to me the notion that the literal Greek translation of the prodigal son’s activities in the foreign land (usually translated, “he squandered his property.”) is literally “he scattered his substance.”[9] I think this is a beautiful observation, because it sets the table for viewing this parable as a metaphor for the Father’s accepting grace (justification) to also be the starting point for regeneration. Though the prodigal son scatters his substance to the extent that he even abandons his own identity as a son and heir of the father (“I will get up and say to my father….treat me like one of your hired hands.”), (Luke 15:18) when he finally returns and his father throws his arms around him, he stammers out his repentance, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, I am no longer worthy to be called your son,” but he doesn’t make it to his plan of joining the hired hands. His father regenerates his relationship with him as son, and he again knows himself as a son.

This story also perfectly characterizes repentance because it is truly given as a response to the grace shown. So, repentance, far from being a “lure” for God to forgive us, is instead an affirmation of prevenient grace. Wesley said that prevenient, or preventing grace is responsible for “all the drawings of the Father, the desires after God, which if we yield to them, increase more and more.” [10] This prevenient grace is noticeable in the story in the pig pen, as the son laments his station in life and thinks of his father’s generosity. This step toward repentance, though motivated by self-centeredness, is still infused with grace because it is a “drawing of the father.”

Justification is the experience of being embraced by a loving Father who chooses to accept us even though we don’t deserve it. The prodigal son thinks he will be lucky to wind up in the servants’ quarters, working for his food. His father runs to greet him and puts his ring on his finger and throws him a party. As before mentioned, justification is the point that regeneration begins. It is the experience of being reconstituted and re-grown. It is the experience of being re-substantiated as a son when we have “scattered our substance” to the extent that we don’t know ourselves as children of God.

Though it may be a preaching cliché, it deserves mention that we typically refer to this story as the “prodigal son” but the story of grace exhibited by the father in the story is not limited in his direction. Both the prodigal son and the son who remained at home with the father are focal points in the story, and Jesus even asks his Pharisee audience to put themselves in the shoes of the loyal son by leaving the story with an open ending. To me, this exhibits the nature of sanctifying grace in that it goes on and on, goading us toward the heavenly banquet. The loyal son resents his father’s grace and instead wallows in his own self-pity. Instead of being thankful for the time spent with his father on the farm, he resents it and is jealous of his brother’s party. But his Father comes out in the courtyard and pleads with him to come inside. While justification is our restoration to God favor, utter sanctification is the restoration to the image of God. The father in the story is cajoling his loyal son to become forgiving and welcoming, like the father has done.

Sanctification is growing in grace toward a perfection of love. It is a powerful understanding of grace because it gives us the vocabulary to speak about salvation as a journey instead of an experience set and bounded by time. It orients our experience of God toward relationship, because it instills in us the idea that grace is something that happens every day of our life, and our relationship with God is organic, not static. In this organic relationship, we have genuine freedom and responsibility to keep our eyes open to that grace. If we do not, we forget who and whose we are and return to the distant land, scattering our substance.

Wesley thought of the mark of a Christian life to be holiness. Holiness was expressed in personal life, and in one’s engagement with society. I believe a chief component of this holiness is the forgiveness that we are asked to give in order to receive from God in the Lord’s prayer. This forgiveness and reconciliation seems to be the chief concern of the Father in the story that Jesus tells, and we can be sure that it is the first thing our Heavenly Father looks for in our own lives as well.

6. For the sake of the mission of Jesus Christ in the world and the most effective witness to the Christian gospel, and in consideration of your influence as an ordained minister, are you willing to make a complete dedication of yourself of the highest ideals of the Christian life; and to this end will you agree to exercise responsible self-control by personal habits conducive to physical health, intentional intellectual development, fidelity in marriage and celibacy in singleness, integrity in all personal relationships, social responsibility, and growth in grace and the knowledge and love of God? Explain.

I understand the agreement I make outlined in ¶304.2 to be to make myself a “clean window” for God’s light to shine through my life. Wesley believed, and I believe, that personal holiness is the foundation of social holiness. Therefore, I have the ability to further unveil God’s kingdom in this world by my commitment to live in a way that celebrates the “authentic life.” Living as a member of a community who dedicates himself to the above mentioned criteria gives others the opportunity to see firsthand the joy such a lifestyle brings. In this way, my life itself is a witness to the Gospel and evangelism for the benefits that it brings to our lives. However, I am wary of “practicing my piety before others in order to be seen by them.” (Mt. 6:1) Instead of committing myself to personal holiness in order to draw attention to myself, I believe I can best serve God by quietly practicing personal holiness. A window works best when it is clean. And when it is clean, it might not be noticed at all. Instead, it draws attention to what is outside it, or what shines through it.

As I grow in grace and come closer to the redemptive heart of Christ, the Spirit will flow out of my heart, as Christ proclaims in John 7: 37-38: “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me, and let the one who believes in me drink. As the scripture has said, ‘Out of the believer’s heart shall flow rivers of living water.’” The River of Life has the potential to refresh, inspire, and create. By living and loving holistically and joyfully, I give my life to this purpose.

The Book of Discipline states, “we proclaim no personal gospel that fails to express itself in relevant social concerns; we proclaim no social gospel that does not include the personal transformation of sinners.”[11] The social witness that I perceive to be the goal of the church begins in the hearts and lives of its believers. The honesty of “faithful living” is the most compelling form of evangelism. Though Christ is with every person, regardless of their good or bad choices in life, I believe Christ leads us toward a richer life in the ways outlined in this question. The Biblical witness shows that God builds a relationship with us through covenants. When we live in a way that celebrates trust, honesty, integrity, and maturity, these values are multiplied in our culture. John Wesley’s vision of social holiness is kindled in our personal lives.

7. What is the meaning and significance of the Sacraments?

For me, administering the sacraments is of paramount importance when considering my calling into the ministry. I have studied By Water and the Spirit, and This Holy Mystery, and believe a centering of our worship and ministry around the sacraments will bring about great spiritual renewal. Each time I offer communion to a parishioner, I am cognizant that God’s grace is being tangibly offered in a way too deep for words. I have been honored to baptize eleven infants and confirmands, and have had numerous conversations on our particular understanding of Baptism and how it differs from that of other denominations which are prevalent in our communities.

When I offer the communion bread, I tear off a piece of the common loaf and place it in the recipient’s hands, saying “Brother, (or Sister), the Bread of Life.” I have always chosen to say “brother” or “sister” because it accentuates the theological notion of our adoption by God, and the ecclesiological notion of a familial body of Christ. I choose to say “the Bread of Life” because I speak about the idea that the community is the “Body of Christ, redeemed by his blood,” in the Great Thanksgiving, and want to give the people partaking another phrase to consider while eating the bread. The communion bread is the “bread of life” because is made from life, it gives life, and it transforms life.

When I have poured the waters of baptism, I have always felt a deep sense of gratitude that God is using me to be involved in such a monumental moment in the person’s life. I approach Baptism as the “threshold” to the House of God. Whether we are infants or adults, we “put on Christ” and begin a new life of forgiveness, compassion, and growing in grace.

8. Describe the nature and mission of the Church. What is its primary tasks today?

In the “Wesleyan Vision” document on the GBHEM website, there is a great description of what the church has been and should be. The authors write that the ecclesia should:

Support one another in the shared journey of realizing God’s love, taking on the mind of Christ, and manifesting the fruit of the Spirit. While the possibility of such transformation is grounded solely in God’s grace, Wesley recognized that God has chosen to involve humanity cooperatively in the process of salvation. We must put to work what God is working in us (Phil. 2:12-13). [12]

I have heard it said that the task of the church is to be “created co-creators” in the world. The creativity of the church helps to define our primary task of making the Kingdom of God known. Christ gave us the “great commission” to make disciples who will help to achieve this goal.

As Paul understood it, the nature of the church is literally the body of Christ and the manifestation of the Risen Christ in the world. Our nature is also our mission—because it is both a description and a potential. Though the church is the body of Christ, it must be dynamic just as Jesus was dynamic. The Gospels show that Jesus was on the move—he was tireless in his efforts to reveal God to the people. Likewise, the church as the body of Christ has this same mission today. Christ talked about his presence in the poor, the widowed, and the orphaned. If we are the body of Christ, we must reach out to these people in whom Christ resides.

When I was a youth minister, I took a group of youth to Kansas City from Bartlesville in our new church bus. On our return, the weather through Kansas was getting quite nasty. There were tornados touching down west of us, but I knew we could get out of the path of the tornados if we only could get to our southern road. There were no safe places to stop in rural Kansas, so I barged on ahead with the hope that I would be able to keep the kids out of harm’s way. The shell on the van was catching the wind, and from time to time I was concerned that I would not be able to retain control of the van. In the midst of it all, the kids were laughing and carrying on in the back, oblivious to the pit that I had in my stomach. “These are your children, God, and I’m all you’ve got to keep them safe,” I prayed, “So guide my hands and stay at my side because I’m afraid!” It wasn’t so much a petition of a prayer as it was a demand of God. I needed a sign from God that I wasn’t alone in such a daunting task. Within minutes of asking God to open my eyes to His presence, a lighting bolt struck a tree that was about 50 yards outside my driver’s window just as I passed it. The tree burst into flames, and the kids screamed in fear and delight. From that point on during our journey home, my hands were steady despite the continuing wind and storm.

The reason I share this experience here is because I believe the people of God are being whipped around by the storms of our time. War, pandemics, oppression, social upheaval, and environmental crises: all of these things put God’s creation in the midst of great danger. A contemporary challenge for the church is to call on God’s guidance and then face the storm that bears down upon us with the faith that God is by our side. When God’s presence is manifested for our confidence and inspiration during these crises, it is our task to point “through the window” and witness to humanity that we are not alone.

We have the opportunity to invoke God’s presence and then witness to God’s activity through worship. I believe one aspect of the church’s mission in this day is to provide a worship experience that inspires creativity, reverence, and which empowers participants to build the Kingdom of God. I have been excited to see the developments of “alternative worship” and the “emergent church,” which build on the technological and creative gifts of people of faith to design worship experiences that resonate with people of the “media generations.” In my youth ministry, college ministry, and parish ministry, I have experimented with forms of “movement centered” worship that engage all of the senses—encouraging us to “taste and see that God is good.” (Ps. 34)

The unveiling of the kingdom of God is best carried out by a group of people who are inspired. Though the traditional models of worship have served the church well for many generations, we face new challenges in a world that is flooded with images. We as a church must adapt to a population that is increasingly engaging the world in a multi-sensory fashion. By planning worship that is engaging and impressive to people, the church will be able to convey the power and meaning of our own symbols and facilitate an experience where worshippers might open their eyes to the hollowness of the images of materialism that dominate our current landscape. As Jesus says, “The Sabbath is made for humanity.” (Mr. 2:27) The Sabbath is linked to God’s creativity, and God calls the church to observe the Sabbath in order to instill in us reverence and inspiration that leads us to renew our efforts to show God’s light to the world.

9. What is your understanding of (a) the Kingdom of God; (b) the Resurrection; (c) eternal life?

In my understanding, the Kingdom of God is a vision that God has for creation. This reality is hoped for by the people of God, and is also achieved in the lives of the people who strive to make the Kingdom of God a present reality. The Kingdom of God is present reality in the Living Christ, who inspires the church to act with the compassion and holiness.

I believe God is desperately pulling us toward the Kingdom of God, but it takes creation’s fulfillment of the persuasive vision and dream of God to make the Kingdom of God a reality. This belief is rooted in the Wesleyan notion of free will. Georgia Harkness wrote that the Kingdom of God is “both present and future. The Kingdom means both acceptance and action, a gift and a task. We work for it as we wait for it." [13]

I give my heart to the idea that this Kingdom is both possible and present. It is possible in the sense of world salvation or the reign of God over political systems of selfishness. It is present in the reign of God in the salvation of individual hearts. These saints in whom the reign of God is expressed exhibit the possibility for the whole world and actively work for the realization of God’s creativity.

The Resurrection is an event in history through which God proclaims a radical new covenant with Creation. Through the death and resurrection of Christ, God’s incarnation is fully complete. Christ suffered and died a torturous death that exemplified God’s intimate involvement with the experience of creation. Christ was glorified in the Resurrection from death so that Creation might witness its potential.

The disciples experienced mysterious encounters with the Risen Christ. Sometimes, Jesus came to them as they had known him, showing his wounds to those who doubted they were seeing a bodily resurrection of their teacher and friend. In some cases, such as in the last chapters of John, Jesus appeared unrecognizable to his disciples. After a certain exchange though, the disciples would see Christ clearly through the “disguise.” The Gospel witness of both of these experiences of the Risen Christ is an amazing testimony to the depth and breadth of the Resurrection of Christ. The Risen Christ was a bodily incarnation of our Master for a period of time before ascension, and a sign of God’s redeeming grace and power beyond death. The Risen Christ is also an expansion of the Christ consciousness into all Creation and time. As the hymn goes, “You ask me how I know he lives? He lives within my heart!” Christ comes to us with different faces in the day-to-day interactions of our normal lives. If our eyes are opened, like the disciples in Luke’s account of the walk to Emmaus, we will see that we are accompanied by the Risen Christ in the encounters we might otherwise ignore.

Eternal life is a facet of Christ’s resurrection. Through our participation in the “Body of Christ” we are made to live beyond our death in mysterious and beautiful ways. Our participation in Christ’s love for creation is a participation in an everlasting experience of God. There are many conceptualizations of eternal life, and the scriptures don’t seem to be in agreement on them. I am aware that as a pastor to those facing the final stage of bodily life, a theology lesson on the diversity of scriptural accounts of eternal life will not be the appropriate way to respond to a person’s questions about what lies before them. Instead, I hope to allow God to use me as a comforting presence. Therefore, my ideas of eternal life aren’t as important as my ability to listen and assure people who have diverse ideas about our continued journey after death. Douglas John Hall writes,

Life itself presents most of us with enough challenges and as it were, “little endings” that life is itself a preparation for death, if we are sufficiently attentive to its ceaseless passing nature….Two Pauline cornerstones of religiosity, faith and hope, are inherently expressive of this incompleteness. Faith is not sight, and hope is not arrival at the condition hoped for. Both Pauline virtues beg for a completeness they themselves lack. [14]

Our temporality is reflected in our very ideals—but these ideals are all that is within our grasp. Though our current popular conceptualizations of eternal life as subjective immortality do not quite jive with the New Testament concept of bodily resurrection, I believe it is not a pastoral priority to speculate on the “correct doctrine” of eternal life. It is important to my personal spirituality to focus attention instead on the Kingdom “in our midst.” Though this is perhaps a luxury of my youth, I believe a Christian response to the eternal present moment is the utmost glorification of God.

In Matthew 22:22-33, Christ responds to the questions of the Pharisees about the afterlife with a witness to the “God of the Living.” Though our minds are somewhat unable to conceive of God’s possibilities for us in the afterlife, we are invited to respond to the God of the Living in our lives. My experience with the God of the Living is that God has a deep love for Creation. The resurrection of Jesus from the grave is a witness to God’s presence with us after our earthly life.

II. Vocation

1. How do you conceive your vocation as an ordained minister?

As an ordained Elder, the fourfold nature of my vocation is a calling toward preaching the Word, Ordering the administrative life of the church, Serving the community through acts of mercy and justice, and making the Sacraments readily available to the community of faith. According to the “Wesleyan Vision for Theological Education and Leadership,” Wesley believed a minister should also posses “a competent sense of the settings in which the church is serving—obtained through study of science, cultural history, and the like.” [15] This is one aspect of my vocation that is very attractive and fulfilling, because I enjoy learning about all sorts of things that help me identify with my parish. In undergraduate school, I fancied myself a “renaissance man,” taking all kinds of courses, from music appreciation to the History of China to Biology. After getting a D in Microeconomics, though, I decided to leave the “renaissance man” stuff to Da Vinci and instead take courses in fields in which I’d shown natural aptitude. However, when I read the previously mentioned paper on the GBHEM website, I was pleased that ministry could fulfill this inclination toward broadening my horizons.

According to the Biblical witness, theological tradition, and the Book of Discipline ¶303, the meaning of ordination is to “set apart” those who are called to the orders of Deacon and Elder to provide for the needs of the church and the world. In the context of the general ministry of the Church, ordination “provides for the continuation of Christ’s ministry, which has been committed to the church as a whole.”[16] As a “gift from God to the Church,” ordination conveys God’s grace and love for the world. As a recipient and a conduit of this gift for the church, my role as an ordained clergyperson would be to give inspiration, education, and opportunities to the people of God. Ordination also calls me to reach out to those who aren’t familiar with the good news of God’s love and grace for the world. Though lay people and ordained clergy are both called by God to lead the Church, ordination is the special recognition by the church that God calls a person to a particular function within the life of the Church.

As a minister within a particular context, ordination calls me to utilize the tools of my location to re-frame the Good News to appeal to a given body of people. Ordination requires creativity, sensitivity, openness, humility, and bravery to meet all these needs. As the “general ministry of the church,” I believe ordination is the call to listen constantly to God’s whisperings. Ordination is the human response to make God’s direction our livelihood. We are “set apart” in a community to draw attention to God’s vision for our individual and corporate lives.

III. The Practice of Ministry

1. How has the practice of commissioned ministry affected your understanding of the expectations and obligations of the itinerant system?

As a commissioned minister, I have moved once from one conference to another. I have come in to two different churches which hosted the previous pastor for only a year and a half each. In both cases, church members felt like their church was a “revolving door,” and seemed to lament this facet of our system of ministry.

On the other hand, both churches seemed to have benefited from the unique perspectives and differing gifts and graces of each minister. As the retired Bishop Kenneth Carder of Mississippi once said, “Polity is Ecclesiology,” or in simpler terms, the way we structure the church gives us insight on what we believe the church represents in the world. The iteneracy is the embodyment of the connectional system, and our connection is an ecclesiological statement to the world about who we believe Christ to be in the world. The connectional nature of the church is probably most evident to the laypeople of the church in the charge conference, the apportionment, and the iteneracy. This method of organizing church leads to a very real sense of connection between the Methodist churches in one area because they are all served by the same clergy, and because they all contribute to one purpose—making disciples for Jesus Christ.

In 1 Corinthians 3, Paul speaks of this same structure within the church. He writes, “Using the gift God gave me as a good architect, I designed blueprints; Apollos is putting up the walls. Let each carpenter who comes on the job take care to build on the foundation! Remember, there is only one foundation, the one already laid: Jesus Christ. Take particular care in picking out your building materials…” [17]

Before I was appointed to my first church (in Waldron, AR), I had a dream that I was a “traveling architect” who came upon a group of people building a house. The house was something very special, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on a particular style. The house was a unique kind of place, windows sticking out here and there, winding staircases and turrets, a large, welcoming front door. As I came up to the house and made my suggestions for other additions to the house, the people scratched their heads and surveyed the plans, then they shared their tools with me and we began building. It became clear to me that the people had been welcoming other “traveling architects” like me for quite some time, which was why this place was so unique. After reading the above passage from Corinthians at a later date, it struck me that the people in my dream were symbolozing the church, and the building that we work on is literally God’s Temple—not a physical structure, but the wonderful temple which is “all of us” according to Paul’s letter to the Corinthians.

With an itinerant clergy, the church may sometimes feel like a watering hole for clergy to pass through and offer their “two cents.” But if we pay attention to Paul’s metaphor, we see that we are indeed building a very unique and beautiful house—one that God can live in. The myriad of gifts and graces entrusted to the diverse clergy of an area assure that the house we are working on has welcoming doors and lots of windows, winding staircases, beautiful detail and décor, balconies and high ceilings. We should pay attention to the building materials that we use, because we want this house to stand the test of time—and it will endure some trials. However, with our connection, with the input of all those traveling architects, the Spirit will lead us to build on a solid foundation.

I have experienced the itinerant system both as a minister and as a son of a minister. As a child of a minister, I was blessed to have a good experience with the moves and transitions that it brought into my life. I knew other “P.K.’s” who weren’t so fortunate. As a minister with a family of my own, the itinerant system has been bittersweet. Still there is the excitement of going somewhere new, but new are the difficulties of moving just as friendships are beginning to develop (if they have time to develop at all), and feeling like our lives and livelihoods are not of our own design. I suppose as a child in a pastor’s family, the iteneracy seemed like a fact of life. Now, as I choose to follow my own calling into ministry, the ramifications of that choice for my family seem more tangible. However, I am emboldened by the Wesleyan covenant, and the generations of ministers before me who have taken it and the generation with whom I will take it. “I am no longer my own, but thine. Put me to what thou wilt, rank me with whom thou wilt. Put me to doing, put me to suffering. Let me be employed for thee, or laid aside for thee, exalted for thee or brought low by thee….”[18]

2. Do you offer yourself without reserve to be appointed and to serve as the appointive authority may determine?

I must confess that I am perplexed by the word “reserve” in the question. Moses and Jesus (and practically everyone else in the Bible) had “reservations” about their call and where that would lead them.[19] Is more certainty expected from a candidate for ordination? Reservations” are an indelible part of our Biblical heritage. God named our ancestor “Israel” because he “wrestled with God.” I cannot pretend that I have no concerns about my calling’s implications on my family—considerations with which neither Jesus nor John Wesley were much concerned. But I am willing.

As a United Methodist minister’s son, I have grown up within the itinerant system, and an understanding that the bishop’s cabinet may see it fit to move my family and me to another location to be in ministry. I am willing to entrust my life and ministry to the Spirit guided deliberations of the cabinet. I believe that open communication with my district superintendent about my gifts and graces for ministry in the church and about the special needs of my family will facilitate the guidance of the Spirit in the deliberations of the cabinet.

One aspect of my familial situation that I have made clear to my district superintendent in the hopes that it enters into the deliberations of the cabinet is the degree of specialization of my wife’s profession, and the limitations that puts on her employment outside her current practice at a developmental pediatric clinic in Tulsa. This being said, I believe God has called me to the ordained ministry as an Elder, and I believe God has called my wife to use her focused talents to evaluate, diagnose, and counsel children and families of children on the autism spectrum and with learning disorders, as her residencies and post doctoral work have qualified her to do. I trust that God will make it work.

3. Describe and evaluate your personal gifts for ministry. What would be your areas of strength and areas that you need to be strengthened? How have they affected your ministry?

In the course of my ministry, I have come to know teaching as the “calling within the calling” for me. I believe I have gifts for teaching, and I sense it as a calling for me because I feel empowered and enabled by it. Every time I am preparing and teaching a Bible study at church, it acts as a fuel for my ministry in other areas. It doesn’t concern me if I have 3 or 30 people show up to a study, I am energized by sharing information, delving into new ideas, and witnessing intellectual growth in faith.

I believe I also have a gift for preaching. I have been told by parishioners and others that my sermons are well grounded in Scripture, inspiring, challenging, and intelligently given. I have shared several sermons with www.textweek.com, a sermon writing resource, and have noticed them getting a lot of views on my own website, as well as a lot of encouraging comments. I feel the Spirit’s movement within me when I am preparing for a sermon and when I am preaching, but I do have occasional “dry spells” when I have a hard time finding the inspiration for “a credible and timely word.”[20] I hope my sermon delivery progresses over the years. I feel most comfortable preaching from a manuscript in the pulpit, but have found my presentation to be more engaging and charismatic when I occasionally prepare with notes and leave the pulpit.

Over the past year, I have grown in my ability to gauge when someone would appreciate a pastoral visit and then act on that gut feeling. This was not a “natural” gift, but instead had to be cultivated through practice. I have also learned through disappointment that I felt and faced when I failed to act on the movement of the Spirit that someone was in need of a pastoral visit.

According to the different models presented in the book assigned by the Board of Ordained Ministry, Leadership is the Key,[21] I believe I draw from the teaching, scholarship, fellowship, preaching, and spiritual guide models. I have room to grow in other areas of my ministry, including (but not limited to): gaining more enthusiasm and charisma when I speak and preach, gaining patience with the necessary administrative tasks and annoying things a pastor encounters in day to day ministry (“Someone moved the tables that I set up!” “So and so is on the phone, and she needs help with gas money again—it’s the second time she’s called this weekend!” etc.), gaining a better capacity for remembering names and the web of relationships that occur in a church. I have taken comfort in the adage, “God doesn’t call the equipped, God equips the called.”

4. Are you willing to minister with all persons without regard to race, color, ethnicity, national origin, social status, gender, sexual orientation, age, economic condition or disabilities?

I affirm the diversity of God’s creation and our church, and would like to see the church grow more diverse. Thus, I will gladly minister to everyone in the church, and those in the community who seek ministry. I believe that God’s vision for the world is for us to know the Spirit that dwells within us and between us—the Divine Breath that connects all things together. I believe that this is a foundational component of the Realm of God. An outgrowth of this recognition in the church is a burgeoning inclusiveness in ministry. As we see in the birth of the Church in Acts 2, the Wind of God stirs us into inclusiveness. The Holy Spirit’s gift to that original church was the astonishing ability to speak in tongues that were understood by people from all over the world. The news of “God’s deeds and power” can be communicated in our context with this same beauty and openness, but we must be prepared for the Spirit’s inclusiveness to extend beyond our own ideas of where it should go. As Jesus says in John 3, the Spirit of God is like the Wind. No one sees where it comes from or where it is going—and all who are born of the Spirit have this same quality. In Luke’s gospel, the disciples of Jesus were consistently bewildered by Christ’s actions toward those they felt were unworthy of grace and Divine light. These disciples must have been perplexed that the Spirit led them to attract foreigners from every corner of the known world to the message of God’s love. The contention about God’s openness is played out as early as the church’s first generation, when Paul and Peter argue with James and the Jerusalem church that the inclusiveness of God extends beyond their own cultural stipulations of God’s covenant in the form of circumcision.

The doctrinal trials of the early church inspire me to think about how we are being challenged to make the church more inclusive in our current context. I believe that churches that embrace the challenge of inclusiveness will be attractive to members of my generation, who typically view a church’s refusal to be truly open to all people as hypocritical to Christ’s message. If we are to be the representatives of the early church, we must learn to live with the inclusive power of the Spirit—even though it may sometimes make us uncomfortable. Inclusiveness is a nice concept that may, for some, conjure up images of smiles and fluffiness. However, inclusiveness is a challenge. It has the potential to make people angry because we like the “status quo.” Merely “accepting” or “tolerating” people who are different than we are is only the first step of inclusiveness. Radical inclusiveness, the kind of inclusiveness that sparked the tremendous growth of the early church, is celebrating and ministering to God’s creation in all its diversity. It means recognizing the stirring of the Spirit in people who are very different from us.

In Acts 10 and 11, Peter witnesses the activity of the Holy Spirit among the Gentiles and is astounded: “Who are we to withhold the waters of Baptism, when God has poured out the Spirit upon them,” he testifies. If we open our eyes, ears, minds, and hearts to the movement of the Holy Spirit, we will see that the Spirit works in people and in places that astound us as well. Unless we plan on “hindering God,” we can be like the early church in the breaking down of cultural walls that separate us. The church does not have the choice whether or not it is going to be “inclusive.” Simply put, the church has nothing to do with Christ if it is not a reflection of his unequivocal inclusiveness.

5. Will you regard all pastoral conversations of a confessional nature as a trust between the person concerned and God?

I am ready and willing to preserve the confidentiality of confession, provided that I do not determine that the person confessing is an imminent danger to themselves or others, or is being abused. If this is the case, I will make it clear to the person that I would prefer to refer them to professional help or the legal authorities. In my two and a half years of parish ministry, I have had very few parishioners ask for private conversations that I would regard as confessional, but I have honored those confessions I have heard as a sacred communication. I have also kept confidential things that people may have mentioned to me in passing, or in front of their families. If I am unclear about whether a person intends for me to share information of concern with our prayer team, I simply ask if they would like me to share the information, or keep it to myself. Though our ordination has nothing to do with the ability to receive these confessions to God, and there are wonderful ministries such as the Stephen’s Ministry program that equip laypeople with the tools of counseling, we are charged with this responsibility as a natural facet of ministry.

6. Provide evidence of experience in peace and justice ministries.

I have been involved in numerous projects and ministries of environmental justice, which has bearing on bearing on peace and justice among the human family of Creation through the threats of global warming and the socio-economic impact that environmental degradation is having in our world. Besides that, non-human creation is God’s,[22] and worthy of the peace and justice that we also seek for the human family.

When I was a youth minister in Bartlesville, I organized an “environmental mission trip” for our youth that consisted of a trip to Colorado working at a nature preserve and then for the Denver parks and recreation department, working to restore natural ecosystems. The following year, I organized a similar environmental mission trip to Washington DC with the General Board of Church and Society for the Oklahoma Conference. These experiences gave me resources to share with a fellowship of young adults through the National Council of Churches that I later became involved in through a grant I had received from the Fund for Theological Education to study communities of faith that were enacting some kind of creation care into the worship life of the congregation. Through my association with the National Council of Churches, I was able to represent our national ecumenical body in a consortium with the National Religious Partnership for the Environment, which brought together the NCC, the National Association of Evangelicals, the US Conference of Catholic Bishops, and the Coalition on the Environment and Jewish Life. This organization harmonized the efforts on behalf of environmental justice by these large orgainizations.

In 2005, I offered a workshop on Creation care at the Arkansas UMW school of Christian mission. I have also planned a regional conference for Creation Care for the National Council of Churches, held in Little Rock, and am currently on the steering committee of a similar conference for the South Central Jurisdiction being held in March of 2008 at Mt. Sequoyah.

Does peace and justice ministries translate into “planning and attending conferences” in my mind? No. I am also involved in the Oklahoma Conference Environmental Coalition, which recently distributed 500 redbud trees at the last annual conference, and see my role in the church to encourage our laypeople to think more broadly and theologically about the impact of Creation abuse. I also ride my bicycle to make pastoral visits, plant trees, reduce, reuse, and recycle.

In the realm of non-ecological peace and justice, I was the president of the ministerial alliance in Waldron, AR in 2005, and community churches cooperated under our leadership to provide food and shelter at an old hospital for 90 evacuees of Hurricane Katrina. I worked very closely with this project, which lasted several months, and helped several families establish a permanent home in Waldron. This endeavor had racial justice undertones, since our community was a predominantly white mountain town, and all of the evacuees were African Americans from New Orleans. Through the efforts, Waldron broadened its horizons and became more culturally enriched, and the same happened for the evacuees. In Waldron, I also was primarily responsible for a food pantry that our church operated and a voucher program we participated in through the ministerial alliance to provide for utilities and sheltering transients. In Morris, I have helped our mission committee plan a work trip to San Marcos, TX, where we refurbished the home of a blind elderly woman.

7. If a person in your congregation were to ask for re-baptism, what would your response be? Explain.

I would begin by identifying the reason the person believed his or her first baptism was inadequate. Some seem to want to be re-baptized because they feel they missed out on the experience of baptism and are hungering for a tangible, memorable experience to hold. Others seem to be convinced by other denominations that only a “believer’s baptism” by full immersion is acceptable to God. I have met other people who think that baptism is a marker for every time they have felt a re-commitment to a life of faith, perhaps after a life changing experience.

At every opportunity, I make clear to the congregation that I serve that our church accepts the baptisms of other Trinitarian denominations, and that when others join our congregation from other denominations, we gladly accept their baptism from that church, because we believe the Body of Christ is bigger than our denomination. I also make note of this statement of faith when I am inviting those in the congregation to the communion table.

I can understand that especially in a culture where we tend to treat religious experience as a consumable commodity, those who have no memory of their baptism may feel “short-changed.” The impulse to mark a significant religious experience with a tangible ritual makes sense. Before wading into the theological and scriptural underpinnings to our church’s stance on this issue, I would first give some real attention to this person’s experience that they probably want to celebrate with baptism.

If the parishioner wanted to be re-baptized because they had been convinced by friends or relatives that their baptism was inadequate, I would point to the many scriptures and deep theological resources that show how sacramental baptism is the entry of the recipient into the covenant relationship with God through the Body of Christ, or the church. (See the next answer for more detail on these.) Though we may not stay true to that covenant, God remains faithful, and thus a “rebaptism” is unnecessary. God’s covenant with us, outwardly displayed by our baptism, is a one time invitation because the door is never closed. Baptism is a celebration of what God does, not what we do.

Nevertheless, because we are physical beings in need of tangible and memorable “milestones” (nothing to be ashamed of, since God created us this way), I would also lift up the resources we have in our church to mark occasions of spiritual renewal and commitment, such as reaffirmation of faith, covenant renewal, and remembrance of baptism ceremonies. Anointing is a tangible expression of our calling as baptized members of the royal priesthood that engages several senses. I also believe that a second spiritual baptism is a gift that many experience, perhaps marking the experience of justifying grace, or moments of entire sanctification. Though our Pentecostal cousins limit the experience of this gift to speaking in tongues, I have known it as a physical encounter with the Wind of God.[23] As believers in the ever unfolding path of sanctifying grace, we affirm the celebration of milestones along the journey of discipleship. There is no need to go back to the beginning of the race (baptism) to experience the wind on your face as you run.

8. What is your understanding of infant baptism and how does it relate to Confirmation? Use the quadrilateral to support your position.

I understand infant baptism to be an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace of adoption by God and entry into the life of faith and discipleship found in the church. I believe it to be a sacrament “drawing in” the recipient into the body of Christ, as Paul writes to the Corinthians, “For in one Spirit we were all baptized into one body….Now you are the body of Christ and individually members of it.” (1Cor. 13: 11, 27) Regarding the baptism of infants in our Holy Scriptures, we find numerous references to God’s activity in the lives of those who are unaware and unable to communicate a profession of faith. Jeremiah speaks beautifully about God’s nurture of us before we are even born, “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you. Before you were born, I consecrated you.” (Jer. 1:5) Though many of our denominational neighbors do not accept that infant baptism is “scriptural,” there is ample evidence that when early Christians came into the fold, their whole households were baptized.[24]

It is reasonable to believe that when Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, do not stop them, for it is to such as these that the kingdom belongs” (Mark 10:14), he intended for his followers to take him seriously in every facet of faith life. Jesus lifted up the spiritual wakefulness of children too often for us to believe that God’s adoption isn’t conferred until an “age of accountability.” Secondly, the scriptures point to a correlation between circumcision and baptism. (Col 2: 11-12) If we make that connection, then it is quite logical to baptize infants since our Old Testament speaks of God’s covenant being conferred upon a child by the rite of circumcision at the age of 8 days. (Ge. 17: 12)

Infant baptism is also strongly asserted and defended in our tradition. By Water and the Spirit was a much needed study and proclamation of our traditional understanding of baptism. It continues to guide General Conferences since its publication in 1996 on matters of revising our statutes on membership and discipleship. The study reveals a twisting and turning evolution of our popular understanding of baptism, which won’t be recounted here. John Wesley adopted a highly sacramental value for infant baptism, accepting the scriptural understanding of its regenerative effect on humankind. However, his soteriological perspective was that it was neither “essential to nor sufficient for salvation.”[25] Wesley also insisted on a willing commitment to Christ for those who had become morally accountable for their own lives. While we typically refer to this act as “confirmation,” Wesley rejected the notion that the sacrament of baptism was somehow “split in two,” with the confirmation of our vows of Baptism completing the vows of baptism which were taken on our behalf at infancy.[26] Instead of the ritual of confirmation bringing some “closure” to baptism, I instead believe that it “opens wider” the baptismal vows as newly recognized and claimed by the recipient. The profession of faith and laying on of hands that is the heart of this service is a public receiving of God’s continuing grace and commitment to the body of Christ.

My experience of baptizing infants and being baptized as an infant confirms for me the Spirit’s presence in this beautiful sacrament. I have a deep spiritual assurance in my participation in the Body of Christ, and have also witnessed the Spirit’s movement as I have read the beautiful liturgy and stirred the waters during the Thanksgiving over the water. I have felt blessed to be God’s channel of grace during infant baptisms and adult baptisms. I explained to our recent group of confirmands that when I touched their forehead with water and said “Remember your baptism, and be thankful,” I understood that they may not have a cognizant memory of being baptized (I don’t), but that their Spirit does remember, and that God’s grace works in and through us in ways we sometimes do not understand.

9. What is your understanding of the connectional relationship between the local church and general church? How will you give leadership to your local church in the full payment of connectional apportionments and general church obligations?

The connectional relationship of the church is a witness to the world about the Body of Christ and the Pauline theological/ecclesiological statement, “Many gifts, one spirit.”[27] Our churches are diverse in their ministries, their flavors of worship, their settings, their gifts—yet there is one Spirit who guides them and engenders them with vitality and power. As I mentioned in question III.1, the connectional nature of our church is probably most palpable to our laypeople in the institutions of the charge conference, the iteneracy, and the apportionment. Of course, the connection can also be experienced in the church through district and conference events, joint mission projects, and through the support of extension ministries. There are many tools and resources made available to the local church by the annual conference and general conference. Likewise, there would be no annual and general conference if it were not for the gifts and resources of the local church. As in our participation in the spiritual Body of Christ, we find that the whole is more than the sum of its parts when we work and worship in unity.

I have consistently referred to the apportionment as the “lifeblood of the connection.” If we do not bear fruit, we are doing nothing to manifest the grace we have been given. If our church does not “bear fruit” in the apportionment covenant, we are simply taking and not giving. The apportionment is the “lifeblood of the connection,” because without it, the connection would merely be an ideal without embodiment.

In both churches to which I have been appointed, I have vocally and financially supported the apportionment. In both churches, we have paid 100% of our covenant. (Although, in my first year of ministry, it took a last minute gift of around $4000 by one individual to make that happen.) This past year, our finance committee developed the idea of “adopting an apportionment” to subsidize the apportionment budget within the general budget of the church. Each line item in the apportionment was outlined on a card shaped like a heart (which went with the general theme of the program—“The Apportionment: Circulatory system of the Connectional Church”), and then the parishioners were invited to make a special gift above and beyond their pledge and choose a line item in the apportionment to adopt.

The program was a success. Individuals and Sunday school classes each chose some ministry that appealed to them within our apportionment. Everyone got involved. The 3rd-5th grade Sunday school class even adopted the “Interdenominational Cooperation” apportionment for about $35, and paid their adopted apportionment with the collections they had been saving in the classroom for years. The program subsidized about 25% of our apportionment, and in the process educated the church about this aspect of our connection. I am committed to educating the congregation I serve about the importance of the apportionment and its provision for the mission of the Body of Christ.

10. Will you encourage or discourage the use of United Methodist literature and curriculum in the churches you serve? Explain.

I will encourage the use of U.M. literature and curriculum within the church because our literature is unique in its presentation of a Wesleyan outlook on grace and discipleship. While many other curricula emphasize only justifying grace (because it’s the only “movement” of grace they affirm as a theological tradition), United Methodist curriculum is consistent in its articulation of the continuing unfolding nature of sanctifying grace and the “tilling” of prevenient grace. The mission of the United Methodist church is to “make disciples of Jesus Christ.” This is a process and a journey of living into grace, not an encapsulated event of “getting saved.” Our curriculum reflects this broader task.

I think it is sometimes best to let the leaders of various ministries see the benefits of using United Methodist curriculum on their own terms instead of imposing a forced loyalty to United Methodist curriculum. For example: when I was appointed to my church in Morris, I was pleased to find a grief ministry in operation. Unfortunately, they were using “Griefshare,” which is published by the Southern Baptists. I attended some of their meetings, affirmed their ministry, and along the way made reference to our Stephen’s Ministry resources that might also be considered. Eventually, the group came to a video in the Griefshare curriculum that made many in the group feel uncomfortable. It was focused on “getting your soul saved,” so you could be assured of going to heaven to meet your loved one who had passed away.

The group came to the conclusion that this was not in line with their aims as a ministry, and asked me to give them more information about Stephen’s ministries. The pastor doesn’t have to become the “enemy” in the curriculum “war” by alienating laypeople for considering outside resources. Some resources found outside the UM are very good, theologically sound, and full of spiritual depth (I think the Nooma Video curriculum, for instance, is top rate and unparalleled). However, a pastor should take the Christian education of the church very seriously and celebrate our theological heritage which is most consistently found in our own curriculum.


[1] Eugene Peterson writes compellingly about this subject in terms of replacing the Holy Trinity with the “very individualized personal Trinity of my Holy wants, my Holy needs, and my Holy feelings” in the second book of his “Spiritual Theology” series, Eat This Book (Grand Rapids: Eeardman’s, 2006) pp. 31-34

[2]The Book of Discipline of the United Methodist Church (Nashville: UM Publishing House, 2004), 46

[3] Unless otherwise noted, scriptural references will be from the New Revised Standard Version of the Bible.

[4] Douglas John Hall. “We Would See Jesus,” The Living Pulpit (3:1, Jan-Mar 1994), 4.

[5] My First Bible. Edited by Ruth Hannon. (New York: Regina Press, 1974), 77.

[6] The Book of Discipline of the United Methodist Church (Nashville: UM Publishing House, 2004), 79.

[7] BOD, 81

[8] BOD, 82.

[9] Andrew Marr, “The Parable of Two Brothers and Their Father.” (http://andrewmarr.homestead.com/files/girard/twobrothers.htm)

[10] John Wesley, “The Scripture Way of Salvation,” Thomas Jackson, ed. (http://new.gbgm-umc.org/umhistory/wesley/sermons/43/) Point 2.

[11] BOD, 49.

[12] Kenneth L. Carder, et. al, A Wesleyan Vision for Theological Education and Leadership Formation for the 21st Century. (http://www.gbhem.org/ResourceLibrary/WesVision.pdf) p. 4.

[13] Georgia Harkness, Understanding the Kingdom of God. (Nashville: Abingdon, 1974) http://www.religion-online.org/showchapter.asp?title=577&C=743

[14] Douglas John Hall, The Cross in Our Context: Jesus and the Suffering World. (Minneapolis: Fortress, 2003) pp. 215-216

[15] Bishop Kenneth L. Carder, et. al, A Wesleyan Vision for Theological Education and Leadership Formation for the 21st Century. (http://www.gbhem.org/ResourceLibrary/WesVision.pdf) p. 6.

[16] BOD, 183

[17] Eugene Peterson, The Message (Colorado Springs: Navpress, 2005).

[18] John Wesley, “A Covenant Prayer,” United Methodist Hymnal. (Nashville: UM Publishing House, 1989) 607.

[19] Exodus 4, and throughout, Luke 22:42, etc.

[20] I like this description of a sermon brought to my attention by Clark Williamson and Ronald Allen’s book by the same title about process theology and preaching.

[21] Herb Miller, Leadership is the Key: Unlocking your Ministry Effectiveness. (Nashville: Abingdon, 1997) pp. 16-25

[22] “The Earth is the Lord’s, and the fullness thereof, the world, and they that dwell therein.” (Psalm 24, KJV)

[23] Standing in a glacial valley in Wyoming, overlooking a lake surrounded by lodgepole pines, I was praying and journaling on a cliff-face during a 2 week retreat. I suddenly noticed that I could see the wind coming down the valley from the glacier while it blew over the lake in front of me. I could see the gusts of wind before they hit my face. I also noticed that lodgepole pines whistled as the wind blew through them. Isaiah’s words rang in my ears, “For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.” (Is. 55:12, KJV) Perhaps imparting to me the gift of the interpretation of tongues, God gave me the ability to hear the whistling pines and glimmering lake as creation’s response to the Holy Wind of God. The experience has been stamped on my soul, and I can still feel the wind on my face.

[24] Acts 11: 13-14, Acts 16: 15, Acts 16: 31-33, 1 Corinthians 1:16

[25] Mark Trotter, et al, By Water and the Spirit. (Nashville: Discipleship Resources, 1996), 4.

[26]Mark Trotter, et al, By Water and the Spirit (Nashville: Discipleship Resources, 1996), 20.

[27] 1 Corinthians 12

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Why Owen matters

I've always been a big fan of Owen Wilson. Have been since Bottle Rocket. So it was with great shock and sadness that I heard of his suicide attempt. I just came across this open letter to Owen in the Chicago Tribune, written by a fellow blogger who has apparently recently provided a visitor to my blog. Anyway, here's the letter. It describes pretty well what I think about the man too.

Open letter to Owen Wilson
BY CATHLEEN FALSANI Religion Writer
This is a bit of a departure for me, as I’m not in the habit of writing fan letters.In fact, the last one I sent was a bubble-lettered note to the actor Jon Cryer about 20 years ago in the wake of his earth-moving (for a 16-year-old alt-chick from the suburbs) portrayal of Duckie Dale in “Pretty in Pink.”But under the circumstances, I thought it was OK to err on the side of sycophancy. So …Thank God you’re still with us, brother.Please don’t try that again. We need you.And by we, I mean the world.As you well know, these are precarious, fraught times we live in, and the one thing we cannot bear to lose is our sense of humor.To paraphrase that great celluloid shaman Elwood Blues, you, Mr. Wilson, are on a mission from God.
Just a ‘TV friend’Laughter is carbonated holiness, and you, therefore, are a holy man, at least according to the theology of Anne Lamott. She’s my favorite writer, a funny lady who is as acquainted with melancholy as she is with humor.I once asked Annie whether she thought we — people — could be grace for one another. “I think we can hold space for other people,” she said.
In that way, you have been grace for me. On certain overwhelming days, when it’s hard to catch my breath and bleakness curls around my heart like a purring cat, I can reach for any of your films — “Rushmore,” “The Royal Tenenbaums,” “Life Aquatic” or “You Me and Dupree” — and laughter liberates my soul. Your words, written or spoken, sometimes provide the space for joy where it felt like there was none.Thank you for that.Now, I don’t know you from Adam. You’re just a “TV friend,” as they say. Still, I can’t help but believe that the common thread in your character portrayals — whether it’s whacked-out-on-mescaline Eli Cash, self-effacing fatherless Ned Plimpton, or tiny-cowboy-with-a-Napoleon-complex Jedediah — is the inherent you. The Owen-ness. It’s a certain empathy — profound tenderness, really — that makes the ridiculous compelling and buoys tragedy to comedy.
Seeing with God’s eyesIt is precisely because of your wounded-ness and the visible cracks in your veneer that your characters transcend two-dimensional clownishness.You are the ne’er-do-well we root for in spite of himself (and our own judgementalism). You bring out the best in us and make it easy to forgive setting the living room on fire or crashing our wedding (or funeral). You are the mensch, the fool for the Lord, the stranger whom we let in, the divine comedian.One blogger, a journalist who apparently knew you in Austin, Texas, back in the day, described you recently in a heartfelt essay as “a human sunbeam in the abyss.”I’m guessing, given recent events, that kind of description may seem laughable to you. Still, that’s how many folks perceive you even if you can’t see it yourself. And sometimes strangers can see us far more clearly than we are capable of seeing ourselves. If we’re really lucky, they might see us with God’s eyes.I had to chuckle at one of the news reports about your hospitalization that breathlessly reported you had visited a Santa Monica church the Sunday before the incident, “either out of desperation or devotion.'’ Really, I can think of no better reasons to go to church. After all, to quote Annie again, the best two prayers one can offer to the Creator are: “Help me, help me, help me,” and “Thank you, thank you, thank you.”Should you find yourself back at that church or another, please know it is meant to be a shelter in the storm, the place where brokenness is the only prerequisite for membership, and where grace is shared by the bucketsful.Know that you don’t struggle alone, that you have kind company during dark nights of the soul, that you are lifted in prayer by those who know and love you best, as well as by those who only know you as the voice of Lightning McQueen.Please let others hold space for you until the encroaching shadow of despair passes. And it will.And when your contagious laughter bubbles to the surface and overflows once again, know that you are in the presence of the holy.
We need you and the peals of holy laughter you inspire

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Hooray for Doug Pagitt, sticking up for Yoga

From time to time, I feel my comment on another person's blog is worth recollecting on my own. So here's a link to Locust and Honey, or you can just watch the video he posted right here, followed by my comment. Actually, I'll point you to the youtube site so you can lament with me that all the comments are supportive of John MacArthur. It's this kind of thing that makes me sad for Christianity.


Here's my comment:

Word up Dan. John McArthur said something like this in the interview: "Christianity is filling your mind with Biblical truths." It is this kind of perspective that is damaging to the faith. The Shema (which Jesus kind of liked) said, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and strength." (The New Testament adds mind). But, needless to say, Christianity isn't a "brain game" it isn't just about saluting doctrines and bowing down to almighty "truths." What are the "truths" that MacArthur is filling his mind with? Doug Pagitt did a good job of commanding the debate, too bad they ended on MacArthur's nonsense. If yoga is the way people are getting their bodies into worship, then hooray yoga. If you think Christianity hasn't borrowed from other religions from the start (Acts 17:28), then you need to look a little more closely. I practiced yoga for awhile and it is great exercise. I felt rejuvenated after doing it. There is no "worshipping Hindu gods," or whatever. I’m sure you could find a yoga practice that offers that, but most in this country don't. Also, with the stupid reference to the dictionary definition of yoga, that is because yoga is the Hindu word for discipline, or pathway. It is a term that refers to the many paths to God within Hinduism. Adherents of Bhakti Yoga (the largest segment of Hinduism) find God through the expression of devotion to a god as a "face of Brahman." Brahman (nominative brahma ब्रह्म) is the concept of the supreme spirit found in Hinduism. Brahman is the unchanging, infinite, immanent, and transcendent reality which is the Divine Ground of all matter, energy, time, space, being, and everything beyond in this universe. Sound familiar? Did you read that Acts passage? You also have Jnana Yoga (the discipline of intellectual worship), karma yoga is the discipline of action, raja yoga is the discipline of meditation, and hatha yoga is the discipline of body and breath, which we commonly call yoga. The broadcaster, being ignorant of eastern religions, looked up the wrong word to find the definition of what he was talking about. John MacArthur was speaking about something he proudly stated he had never participated in. Why do people buy into such drivel? The paths of yoga are profound and worth looking into. Maybe, as Christians, we'll learn something.

Brian McLaren says he's an atheist!

Well that got your attention, didn't it methoblogger? You might want to push pause on my little LastFM radio that comes on whether you want it to or not. (I could have set that thing to only come on if you asked it too. Is it rude that I didn't?)

Anyway, here's a new hymn that kind of chafes at first, but then grows on you. Kind of a hypnotic melody, written by "Mr. Emergent" himself

Well, nevermind, the embed thing is messing up over at youtube, just click here to go there

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

I hope this works!

COMMENTARY: Let’s streamline ordination now Rebekah Miles, Aug 27, 2007

Rebekah Miles “Any sufficiently advanced bureaucracy is indistinguishable from molasses.” —Anonymous


By Rebekah Miles Special Contributor I disagree passionately with the recommendation of the 2004-08 Ministry Commission that General Conference not act on petitions that will “affect the ordering of ministry,” referring them all to a 2008-2012 Ministry Commission. General Conference delegates in 2008 will have a chance to consider ministry legislation that is critical for the future of our church and its mission. We should not discourage delegates from doing the work for which they were elected. The Commission’s report includes many proposals that could revitalize our church. I would like to focus here on one. At its final meeting, Commission members agreed unanimously that our church needs to streamline the process leading to ordination. Many of our leaders acknowledge that we desperately need more young pastors as well as pastors from new and growing ethnic minority groups. Streamlining the long, complex process leading to ordained ministry would help us attract those pastors. A few days ago I asked two young pastors to tell me what they thought about the process leading to ordination in the United Methodist Church. They contacted some of their friends, and within less than 24 hours I had received a dozen e-mails—many of them stretching four to eight pages long and almost all of them brimming with frustration. They wrote that a key obstacle for young people considering ordained ministry is that the current process leading to ordination is “bureaucratic,” “rigid,” “frustrating,” “long,” “discouraging,” “complicated,” “daunting,” “tedious,” “repetitive” and “labyrinthine.” They mentioned friends who had decided not to go into ordained ministry because the process was so “convoluted.” Here are two quotations from their e-mails: · “The length and the rigidity of the present system are the two greatest contributors to the young adult clergy shortage. If we do not change the present system we are only going to lose more young adults to other professions where they feel that they can live out their calling in an authentic and purposeful way.” —The Rev. Gena Anderson, Central Texas Conference · “I feel incredibly confident that God has called me into ordained ministry. However... [f]or a person my age (21 years old) the last thing I want to do is deal with a huge, long and frustrating process.” —Ani Trejo, Rio Grande Conference We have put into place a long, bureaucratic process with loads of paperwork, saying all the while that we want to attract more young adults to ordained ministry. Yet young adults (between 21 and 35) are members of two generations that tend to share several things in common: their deep dislike of bureaucracy and red tape, their suspicion of large, centralized institutions, and their frustration with hierarchical systems based on seniority and not merit. If we were to set out to design a system that was unattractive to Generations X and Y, we would have a hard time coming up with anything worse than the system we have now. As a church, it’s tempting to tell young adults, “We expect you to adjust to fit the system as it is.” In business articles about young adult employees, a common theme emerges: If managers tell young adults in their organizations that they need to get used to the current system, saying in effect, “It’s my way or the highway,” more often that not, young adults will take the highway. That is exactly what has happened in our church. Just over 20 years ago, our church had 3,200 elders under 35; now we have only 850. We’ve gone from 15 percent of all United Methodist elders being under 35 to less than 5 percent today. In an upcoming book based on surveys of young United Methodist pastors, Lovett Weems and Ann Michael write, “Forty percent said they had considered seeking ordination in a different denomination at some point during the candidacy and ordination process. When asked why, reasons having to do with the length of, and frustration with, the ordination process exceeded all others.” Elsewhere, Dr. Weems has called young clergy, “United Methodism’s endangered species.” If we do not fix the problems that put young pastors on that list in the first place, we as a church will also be endangered. Let’s not wait four more years to enact measures that would help keep our church and our young clergy off the endangered species list. Matthew Johnson, a young pastor in my conference, said, “My prayer is that I will listen to the concerns of younger clergy when I am 50, better than they have listened to me and my peers while in our 30s.” If General Conference decides to establish yet another study commission (the 15th study in 17 quadrennia), let’s try something new and ask that at least one-third of its members be under 40. At 47, I was the youngest member on the current commission. That’s a sad and telling fact. Friends, let’s listen to younger pastors and let’s be willing to change so that we can bring them more fully into our shared fellowship. Young pastors, we are listening. Dr. Miles, clergy delegate to General Conference from the Arkansas Conference and associate professor of ethics at Perkins School of Theology, is a member of the Commission on the Study of Ministry. She and six other Commission Members signed the minority report.


Rebekah Miles



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For what it's worth--I got a call today from a guy in the district who wanted to give me his spot on a commission to revitalize the orders in the Oklahoma conference. It has been my experience that the older generations are willing to share the reigns, but I think my generation is reluctant to step out and let our elders know we are ready and willing to take them. My DS has enthusiastically responded to my messages to her that I'm interested to do things like being placed in the pool of nominees for General and Jurisdictional commissions. Young adult clergy generation should step up to the plate. IF there's only 850 of us, we are likely going to be in high demand!

Friday, September 07, 2007

Little pleasures






1. Buying the Star Wars stamps and making sure my quarterly tax statements are mailed to the gub'ment with either a Sith Lord or Storm Troopers.






2. Using the word "besmirch." As in, "I wouldn't besmirch the Yoda stamp by putting it on the US Treasury envelope."

3. Football season--in effect.
4. Getting to hear Fred Craddock and Barbara Brown Taylor preach next weekend.

3. The new mohogany speedboat stamps.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

My question to Dr. John Cobb about Process theology and assurance, brought on by Mother Theresa's inner void.

I sent in the following question to Process and Faith's monthly "Ask Dr. Cobb." It made it for the Sept. 2007 featured question. I believe I bit off more than I could chew. Cobb's answer made my ears ring I was concentrating so hard.

I just finished reading the Time cover article about Mother Theresa's letters to her confessors that are shedding some light on the inner darkness that she experienced for the duration of her ministry. Does Process Theology offer anything to explain why the most beloved person of faith of the 20th century felt such a deep and painful yearning for a sense of connection with the divine? The same question would apply to Jesus' heartwrenching "Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthanai. Does Process Theology posit a "blessed assurance" when we are following the Divine Aim?

Here's what he said

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Between the A and the T

I picked up Wesley the other day from the Creek Nation Daycare, and he asked, "Where's mommie.....at?" It was like the "at" was tacked on at the end of the sentence like he was developing a more sophisticated way of communicating. I had to choke back the urge to correct his grammar. It sounded horrible. I was thinking, "where in the hell did he learn that at?"


(J/K) I was thinking, "where in the hell did he learn that?" I rephrased the question--"Where's mommie? She's at work, son." I did the same thing for the youth on the mission trip, except I was more direct.
Youth: "Where's the hammer at?"
Me: "It is superfluous to ask, 'Where's the hammer at?" "Where's the hammer?" works just fine, doesn't it?"
Youth, in her own mind: "What is superfluous?" or "Whatever."
Me, in my own head, imagining what she is saying in her own head: "Wow, he's right! I think I remember that from some 4th grade English class. Maybe I'll start valuing my education by actually using it in day to day life!"
I wonder if my own personal mission to help the youth speak English stuck with them. It is such an epidemic--and I don't think it is just regional. I remember it in L A too. I think it is just people becoming lazy with their speech. It drives me nucking futs!

Of course, on the other hand, I don't speak or type perfect with perfect grammar either, and it is really annoying to hear people correcting other people's grammar. One of my favorite quotes I think is from designing women, and Suzanne I think is being corrected by Julia. Suzanne says something like, "where's my makeup brush at?" and Julia lets her know she sounds like an uneducated something or other for ending her sentence in a preposition. So Suzanne retorts, "Okay, where's my makeup brush at....beeeiiitch!"

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Remember, there's no such thing as a stupid question


I was sitting here, listening to a song by the Chemical Bros. called "Lost in the K-Hole," and was of course keeping the beat with my head, (and a little "Walk Like an Egyptian" hand movements),(well, you try to keep still to that one!), and my stupid cat Lao-Tzu was just sitting on my desk looking at me. "C'mon, cat, don't you feel the rhythm? At least tap your tail or something!" I suppose this is one of those things that seperates us from other animals. Does anyone know if any other animal has a sense of rhythm and beat? Do chimps dance? (I suppose you say that some homosapiens don't have it either!) If that question doesn't put a bee in your bonnet, what about the origin of the word "rhythm?" It's quite a bugger!

Monday, August 06, 2007

Gotta love Japanese Rice farmers who grow Hokusai



Each year since 1993 the farmers of the Japanese town of Inakadate have been creating massive images with rice by growing a purple and yellow-leafed kodaimai rice alongside the local green-leafed tsugaru-roman rice.






I got this from the Wooster Collective , which is a blog of ephemeral art around the world. Usually showcases street art such as:




































and

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Lord Jesus

I'm ruminating about Jesus as Lord because it is one of the questions in my BOM materials. I ran across this sermon by Douglass John hall and wanted to save it for later reading. You're welcome to it too.
http://www.pulpit.org/articles/we_would_see_jesus.asp

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Bella

Gordon Atkinson's (Real Live Preacher) contribution to the Christian Century was especially profound this time. It reminded me of Marjorie Suchocki's adaptation of Process theology and (what was it?) relational eternal life? Anyway, Gordon shares a story and a hope that our stories will last, somehow. Read it!

Monday, July 09, 2007

Drink Vodka for Peace?


I saw on the "LiveEarth" broadcast. I guess all advertisers are trying to pull our bleeding heartstrings. But, what about Vodka makes us peaceful? Does Vodka make this a kinder, gentler world?



C'mon!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Parallel Lives



Not that I am not happy with the life I am currently living, because I have always felt like I am walking down yellow brick road and will one day meet the Wizard with this current life that I am leading (or in minister speak, I feel I am leading the life to which I am called).....but sometimes I read something or see something that stirs in me a deep hope that reincarnation is the way things work out, because I think it would be so fun to be and do so many different things. More things than one life allows time for. (especially considering we're not promised tomorrow!) Today it was an email newsletter from Ring Lake Ranch.


Here's a list of some parallel lives I'd like to lead. If this looks like a meme to you, go'n ahead and consider yourself tagged and track back because I'd be interested to see what kind of things you'd like to do too.


1. Suppose I'll start with the life I almost led if it hadn't been for the call into ministry: I would have attended either UNC or UVA for a post graduate degree (or perhaps both) and gotten a Ph.D in Buddhism (Tibetan, though Zen is what I have learned most about from my undergrad prof. McDaniel--b/c I think I remember there being a big pro in the field at UVA) or American Religion if at UNC--just like another of my prof's, Dr. Jane Harris. Then, of course, I would have been employed at Hendrix College. One of my friends from college, Brad, actually did get his post-grad degree in Tibetan Buddhism at U of Chicago and studied in Tibet as well. I saw him at a friend's wedding in South Carolina a year ago, and he seemed very happy with his life (though he seemed somewhat disenchanted with being in school for so long.) I think he was going to go work in a museum. That sounds good.


2. If I'd followed my high school dreams for life, I'd have gone into the field of archaeology or perhaps paleontology. I just had a fantasy the other day that I had pursued this goal and had made my mark on the field by developing a computerized "virtual catalogue" of footprints and bones that could be used to connect missing links.


3. It would be great to work at Ring Lake Ranch mixing the design of workshops on spirituality with the care of horses, fishing, the mountains, hiking, etc.


4. I study architecture and apprentice myself to Frank Gehry or Fay Jones. I love organic architecture.
5. I would be an illuminator for the St. John's Bible.



6. I would be a journalist.


7. I would be a commentator for the Arkansas Razorbacks football team.


8. I would be my cat, Lao-Tzu. (At the moment, she seems quite interested in my coffee)


9. I would be a competitive scrabble tournament geek.
10. I suppose I could have continued on as the program coordinator at Occidental College Office of Religious and Spiritual Life. I had a great boss/collaborator, and it was a fantastic thing to encourage the spiritual development of intelligent college kids at America's most diverse college. It was also cool to have a huge grant to work with.


11. I would be a parrot-head, surf all day, and live on Na pali Coast.


There's more, but now that I've gotten that out of my system, time to get on the sermon.
Hmmm. I get to plumb the depths of sacred writings and weave that together with life and lives in order to inspire some words that I stand up and give to a congregation of people who consider that something that is part of the worship of God. I get to break bread and lift up a cup of juice and acknowledge the real presence of Christ in those things, and then I get to place that bread in people's hands with the words "brother/sister, the bread of life." Even though I'm not worthy of the comparison, I get to represent Christ to people who are about to die, about to give birth, and about to awaken. I get to cultivate an awareness of the undercurrents of Reality for a living.
This life is pretty cool, too.
Okay, now I'm ready to write a sermon.

Don't let the bastards grind you down OR Ignorance is Bliss


Thursday, June 14, 2007

Fun with the Articles of Religion

Here's something I stumbled across while preparing for my 6:30 group study of Doctrine and Our Theological Task. Did a bit of Sherlocking, and found some pretty interesting stuff. Wrote the email to a few people I thought would find it interesting, but then thought I'd put it out there for anyone to comment on or bite into.

Hey Jack, John, and Dad
John--another doctrinal dilemma for you. Jack, Grayson may find this interesting--feel free to pass on if you like.
I was looking through my Articles of Religion in prep. for my doctrine study tonight and stumbled across the following, listed after the articles under parentheses that noted that the following "This statement seeks to interpret to our churches in foreign lands Article XXIII of the Articles of Religion. It is a legislative enactment but is not part of the Constitution. (See Judicial Council Decisions No. 41, 176.)"

Then the "pseudo-article" states the following....
"As far as it respects civil affairs we believe it the duty of Christians, and especially of all Christian Ministers, to be subject to the supreme authority of the country where they may reside, and to use all laudable means to enjoin obedience to the powers that be;

I thought it was interesting that in decision 41, they give an historical background of the "pseudo-article" which included the following words as well:

and therefore it is expected that all our Preachers and People, who may be under British or any other Government, will behave themselves as peaceable and orderly subjects."

I can't really find when or under what action we lost that savory bit of language, but apparently it read that way at least until 1947.

I've linked you to the JC decisions below.

JC Decision 41 (1947)
http://archives.umc.org/interior_judicial.asp?mid=263&JDID=121&JDMOD=VWD&SN=1&EN=100


JC Decision 176 (1960)
http://archives.umc.org/interior_judicial.asp?mid=263&JDID=261&JDMOD=VWD&SN=101&EN=200

Interim JC Decision 6 (1968)
http://archives.umc.org/interior_judicial.asp?mid=263&JDID=1032&JDMOD=VWD&SN=1&EN=8


I just thought you'd find it pretty interesting. It's been kind of a thorn in the article of confession's side for some time, giving problems to the MEC South and the Civil rights movement as well. In the 1960 decision, the JC is dealing with someone who seemingly opposed a resolution giving support to the "sit-in" protests and other non-violent protests on account of that particular resolution being "against the restrictive rules," which state that no GC shall adopt new standards or doctrine contrary to our present existing and established standards of doctrine." JC found that the above mentioned "thing" was not a constitutional act. I've been thinking about writing a petition that just does away with the "footnote" all-together, being that what it says is rooted in colonialism, that it no longer reflects the character of our global church, perhaps. (Do we want to encourage "obedience to the powers that be" to those living in Zimbabwe or the Congo, or any number of other places under totalitarian rule? Also, the character of what is said is clearly (and more eloquently) stated in Article XVI of the Evangelical United Bretheren, which states:
"We believe civil government derives its just powers from the sovereign God. As Christians we recognize the governments under whose protection we reside and believe such governments should be based on, and be responsible for, the recognition of human rights under God. We believe war and bloodshed are contrary to the gospel and spirit of Christ. We believe it is the duty of Christian citizens to give moral strength and purpose to their respective governments through sober, righteous and godly living." (Italics mine). Sober, righteous, and godly living is a better way to show our respect for a government than "obedience" don't you think? Also, Bretheren seem to leave a caveat there that gov'ts derive their "just" powers from God, not nec. all power--am I reading that truthfully, you think?

Peace,
nathan

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Sunsets out my back door


This sunset was so odd--I remember seeing the light change out the window to a orangish pink. I looked outside, and everything looked tinted. How beautiful!


Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Unwelcome Guest

Tonight after Lara and I had played a few games of "Butterly Express" (a new computer game "marble shooter") I went in the kitchen to get a refill on my water. When I walked in the kitchen, I saw a small black animal by our dining room table. My first thought was that it was a neighbor's cat (who usually like to eat our cat's cat food) and was just about to snap and hiss at the cat so that it would leave our house--then I saw the white stripe down this particular cat's back. The hiss lodged itself in my throat and I ducked back in the hallway to marshall Lara into position. "We have a skunk in our house," I told her as I closed the bedroom door. "What do we do?" What do you do in this situation? You want the skunk gone, but you also don't want to startle it. If a skunk lets off its spray in a house, it is not just a matter of an unpleasant smell for a few days. You have to get rid of furniture. It can be a big loss of property.
The situation was pretty clear. We had left the garage door open on accident, and the skunk had come in through the cat door which is in our house door out to the garage (a very nice convenience that one of the parishioners put into place when we moved in so we don't have to have the litterbox and catfood (which Wesley loves to play with and on occasion eat) in the house.
So what did we do? "Who can we call?" Lara said. My heart was pounding. What is this animal going to do? What if one of my cats gets after it? "If you don't tell me someone to call in 10 seconds, I'm just going to call 911." Oh jeez. We're going to have quite a reputation around here. The last time we called 911 was when Wesley mysteriously disappeared from our house. Turns out he had learned how to open the door to the garage and found a coke (which we don't let him drink) can with a little coke in it and had found a little hiding spot where he could drink it in peace. While he'd usually respond to us when we called (frantically) for him, this time he instead chose to stay put and finish his coke.
I can just see the 911 operator: "Oh that crazy Methodist pastor who couldn't find his kid in his own house is calling me because he's got a skunk!"
But we were desperate. Lara called 911, apologized and explained our situation. She transferred us to the police department. The policeman said he'd be right over. By this time, we'd bravely peeked out our bedroom door and saw that the skunk wasn't in the hallway, then we branched out and made sure the skunk wasn't in any of the other rooms as we made our way to the kitchen, shutting the doors as we went. The skunk wasn't in the kitchen or the living room or the laundry room or the pantry. I sighed with relief as a bent down to lock the cat-door. Then I headed to the front door to meet the policeman.
We explained our situation, and by this time Lara had looked in the garage too and didn't see him. The police officer said that if we had a shot-gun and could get a clean shot at him if he came around again, it would be fine to go ahead and shoot it. (I assumed he meant outside the house) Last year we noticed a family of skunks making their way into the culvert under our driveway, so I assumed they were taking up residence again. I don't know if I could shoot it, but that would better than getting sprayed! While we were talking, I casually walked over to take another look in the garage, and saw the skunk under the car. Once again, the action movie music rose to a crescendo as my heartbeat quickened. I herded Lara (who had already taken her ambien and was a bit too brazen about the whole situation for my taste) into the front door, and went back in the house to make sure I had locked the cat door. Officer Wiggins banged around in the garage for a while, and we finally saw the varmint tear out of the garage and dash across our front porch, right in front of the front door (previously, Lara had complained about not being able to be part of the action outside on the front porch, but I had insisted that the skunk could decide to come out of the garage and go for the bushes which are right to the other side of our front door. Can you picture that? Garage---------Front door---bushes. Turns out it was a fortuitous decision on my part to insist that we stand inside the front door as to not startle the skunk on its retreat. It is hereby recorded as an instance where I was right and it was important to take my advice on a particular matter. :) So, that's our country fried night of entertainment. What did you do tonight?

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Clergy should get a Compass




This past year, I read (or actually listened to the audiobooks) of an enchanting, beautiful, and disturbing trilogy of books called His Dark Materials. The first part of the series, called The Golden Compass will be released by New Line Cinemas this December and look like they're going to be a hit. The trailer begins with a reference to the successful LOTR trilogy that New Line also masterfully brought to screen, and the two books are both epic and engrossing. They also both have strong undercurrents of religion and spirituality. However, while Tolkien had a positive view of religion, which shone through in his epic, Philip Pullman's view of religion is fairly negative and can also be seen in the pages of His Dark Materials. God is referred to as "The Authority" in the Golden Compass, the church is a dominating bureaucracy that stands in the way of innovation and discovery for fear of the truth behind what might be discovered. Children are tortured in a physical, emotional, and spiritual way by the church, and the heroes of the novel are on a quest to aid an uprising against the Kingdom of Heaven on a Miltonian kind of Armageddon.


Now, I'm not someone who would ever advise one to censor what they read because of objectionable material. Instead, I would encourage everyone I know to read these books. I think they are wonderful--wonder full. But, as a clergy person, I'm happy that I have read and delved into Lyra Belaqua's world (the parallel universe that the main character lives in) to explore it before most of my parishioners have been exposed to it. I'm sure they will have questions, and I prefer to be prepared. Many of our parishioners will be exposed to the Golden Compass this Dec. and many will then pick up the books to read. I'm not sure how far down the rabbit hole New Line will go in the presentation of Pullman's original themes and metaphysics, but the book is quite enchanting and persuasive, and it will do us good to be able to respond knowledgeably and engagingly. I recommend a summer diet of Pulmann, Milton, and Blake (Pulmann's two chief inspirations). As Blake once did, the metaphysics of the book challenge the traditional metaphysic of Christianity, except Pullman has physics at play in his construction of another metaphysic as well. I suppose you could call Pullman's a quantum metaphysic. An excerpt from the second book, The Subtle Knife, of the rebel angel Balthamos addressing Lyra (the main character) “It's an angel speaking, Balthamos said quietly. The authority, God, the creator, the Lord, Yahweh, El, the King, the Father, the Almighty - those were all names he gave himself. He was never the Creator. He was an angel like ourselves; the first angel too, the most powerful. But he was formed of dust as we are, and dust is only a name for what happens when matter begins to understand itself.”


On another note, after reading the whole trilogy, I do believe that Pullman could be quite persuaded by Process Theology, but perhaps that is the subject of another post (or book).


I envy all of you who will now pick up His Dark Materials for the first time now and be able to fall into discovery of the world of armored bears, witches, Will, Balloon flying Texans, daemons, and the like. If you don't have time to read, the audio book is excellent, (BBC production including Pullman as the narrator's voice) and can be listened to in the car (although you may find yourself driving more just to listen).


Oh, and lest I fail to mention it, Pullman is presenting the metaphysic that is contained in the book to advance the story, not to "describe our world, per se." Here's a clip from a BBC interview: BBC: "So, this is an account of where our beliefs, all kinds of beliefs, come from?
PP: No. I wouldn't say it like that. It might turn out to be an account of where my beliefs have come from, but first and foremost, it's a story. You see, I didn't set out to write this thing in order to embody a myth. The myth was something for my own private needs. I needed to have something; some sort of solid ground on which the rest could be erected. But the most important thing as far as the reader is concerned, is the story of what happens: Event succeeding event, explanations of things that were mysterious, gradually becoming apparent. Consequence is being worked out, and so on. That's how stories work, and I'm concerned with a story rather than anything else."

I think that Pullman is dead on in the interview and also in the "moral" of the book that our stories will ultimately save us. I think we in this day and age get too caught up in the discrepancies of "fact" and "fiction" and forget about the much larger power of story or myth. Why does Jesus still find such resonance in our culture 2000 years later? Because he told stories.


I'm attaching a BBC interview with Pullman on a program called "Belief" here.



And a link to the "fansite" for all things Pullman here.



Enjoy!

Monday, May 14, 2007

Grandma wanted to borrow the DVD of my life

A couple weeks ago my grandmother passed away in Monticello, AR. She had pneumonia, but had been debilitated from about 10 years of Alzheimer's disease. On the morning I found out that she died, I felt glad and strangely confident that she was now finally and completely made whole. Alzheimer's is such a difficult disease, that I felt like I had mourned her loss over the course of 10 years--the news of her death was an end to that mourning for me. This isn't the same experience for everyone who knew and loved grandma. My mother, for instance had developed a rhythm of going down to visit her, sitting with her, and was there when she died. My grandpa used to walk to the nursing home every day to make sure they were caring for her as they should. My visits were more infrequent; so for me the loss is less a disruption to the rhythm of life. My dad and I did the funeral service. I was glad that I was given the honor of memorializing her--being the oldest grandchild, I took the approach that I was there to give voice to the grandchildren, and to relate how grandma was a loving grandparent.

As I mentioned, she suffered (and we all suffered) with Alzheimer's for about 10 years. This is such a vexing disease for one who proclaims the reality of the spirit (where was her spirit in those last years? trapped?) and the sanctity of remembrance (there seem to be theological as well as existential consequences to the loss of memories). But for some reason, when reading over the funeral scriptures, I drew confidence from Paul's beautiful words, "we shall be changed, in the twinkling of an eye" and in John's mystical vision of God's proclamation, "Behold, I make all things new." It has been a while since a scripture has penetrated my mind and touched my heart. Usually they just get stuck in the swirling world of ideas, study, and application. These two pierced my heart and formed my words that I shared with the family during the funeral. Praise God!

I share all of this because last night I had a dream that grandma was sitting in my grandparents cluttered living room, and I was there with her. Grandma was really excited to watch this DVD I was holding. It was a home-made DVD similar to ones that I've made of video clips of Wesley's first year, or like the ones I made for our family for this past Christmas, except that this DVD was somehow a record of the 10 years of my life that she missed. I remember feeling a great deal of excitement about the prospect of sharing those moments with her, and when I woke up, I felt refreshed as soon as I opened my eyes for the first time in a long time.

And by the way, the photo is taken by my sister, who is very talented. I'm sure she doesn't mind that I lifted it from her flickr site (Haley Ruth), even though it says "rights reserved."

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Sermon Scraps--Emmaus and a Violin Virtuoso ignored

I'm not preaching on the Emmaus story from Luke this Sunday, but I read a story in the Week this past week that was from the Washington Post that reminded me of it. Take it and run with it.
Here's a good blog link that I found that details the story, including a youtube of the performance, and some reflections. Basically the gist is that a major violinist named Joshua Bell played his 3.5 million dollar Stradivarius at a subway stop in D.C. for close to an hour during rush hour and hardly anyone even stopped to listen. The Post asks, "Do you stop to listen? do you have time for beauty? Shouldn't you? The Washington Post arranged this experiment in context, perception, and priorities--as well as an unblinking assessment of public taste: In a banal setting at an inconvenient time, would beauty transcend?"

I thought the story made a good parallell to Luke's story about the 2 disciples on the road to Emmaus who encounter a stranger with whom they share conversation along the journey. When they reach their destination, they make an effort to convince the stranger to have dinner with them (Luke tells us the stranger makes like he is going to take leave of them once they reach their place), and when he obliges and then has dinner with them, they recognize that it is Jesus when he sits at the table and breaks bread with them. These disciples are good witnesses for us to stop and smell the roses, to encourage beauty and truth and love and depth to win out in our own lives.

Toward the end of the youtube video, (which is shot in time lapse to a soundtrack of one of his performances), you see several congregate at the end--one woman had seen him previously at the library of congress and recognized him as he played, several others looked as though they were perhaps just caught up in the moment--I'd like to count myself among those four or five, but in reality, how many masterpieces of God's have I simply passed with tunnel vision on "my priorities?"

Sunday, April 22, 2007

City of Dated Angels


Tonight Lara and I finished watching City of Angels. We kept noticing things that dated the movie. (i.e. "Oh my God, look at Meg Ryan's glasses!" "Look at that Pepsi can!" Sarah McGlaughlin and Alanis Morrisette?!) Then it hit us--the movie has been out since we started dating. A movie that came out when Lara and I started dating (10 years ago) is now dated to our eyes. The laughter died down in the Mattox den.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

World's Finest Sabbath Nooma Boombox Canon

Just a random assortment of things:
Today, Lara and Wesley and I started a new thing in the Mattox household--an official Sabbath. We only did things that were non-work related (okay, we did clean up the house a little bit.) We started off the day by going to get some breakfast at the "Little Cattleman's" restaurant here in town. This is a restaurant that has "Support the troops" painted in the windows and has all the hashbrowns a cattleman such as myself can manage. Whilst paying the bill, I noticed that they were selling the "World's Finest" chocolate bars that i used to sell back when I played little league in Fayetteville. The chocolate bars (offered in chocolate almond, caramel (oozy, not gooey), and crunch, would come in a box that would convert into a little carrying case that I would lug around my neighborhood (Sequoyah Woods) and sell for a dollar (or was it two). Anyway, I noticed that they have changed the format of their bar. Now it is a longer and thinner bar (like a Wonka bar). When I used to hawk them, it was wider and shorter. I didn't buy one, but now am planning on going back this week and picking up one. The whole circumstance reminded me of bringing the bars to school to sell and being on the schoolbus eating them. I have a distinct memory of peeling one open while being enchanted by the boombox of this cool six grade girl. The boombox had a 3 inch black and white t.v. screen, and she always used to bring it on the bus and play Bon Jovi's "Living on a Prayer." That is the most lucid memory of elementary school bus rides that I have, and it is a good one!

Also of note, and completely unrelated, I realized that I've never shared on this blog my newfound admiration for Rob Bell and all he offers the world of Christianity. We use the nooma series in the Sunday school class I teach, as well as for young adult gatherings. I also just finished his "Velvet Elvis" audiobook, and it is full of gold. If you're looking for something fresh, approachable, genuine, and entertaining, I'd recommend either or both of these. The nooma series videos are 10-15 minute meditations on a given theme that are really provocative and beautiful. They give me chill bumps every time. (Especially Dust). On the "Young adult, emergent tip" I am also looking forward to attending the "Gathering" with Tim Keel (of Jacob's Well) and Doug Pagitt (of Solomon's Porch) on Mt. Sequoyah. I think it will be great. I've already shard beers with Doug at the Jan. gathering in Atlanta, but I've never met Tim and am impressed with what I've seen of Jacob's Well. I remember reading about it in Christian Century a year ago or so and feeling proud of what was happening in the church.




Last but not least, we have recently bought a new Canon Powershot A550. We like it. I've been reading the manual today (a good Sabbath activity, no?) and haven't taken any informed shots yet, but here's one that I like. (Weley's a little bugged by the orange light that comes on before the flash)
















And here's a picture of heaven.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Horseradish Root

Anyone know if it should be boiled or not before grating for the maror for a Seder meal? We're having one on Maundy Thurs. Good Friday we'll have a Tenebre service, I'm practicing banging my Vietnamese gong for the moment after the last words of Christ are read. At least, that's what I did last year. I got a d'jimbe for Christmas, would a little roll on that be more evocative? Comment and vote! Saturday our church is having an easter Eve service with a new Paschal Candle lighted on a bonfire in the parking lot and everything. We'll process into the sanctuary while singing "Chirst Whose Glory Fills the skies." Right out of the Book of Worship, or as I call it, the BOW. Then, after we've brought all the brass and empty cross into the sanctuary, we have a community service that features women singing songs, reading poetry, and giving dramatic performances of the resurrection narrative. (To sort of symbolize the idea that the women disciples kept the lamp burning during the crisis moment in Christian history.

Holy Week gone awry

Monday, April 02, 2007

I'm a C+ Catholic!

Roman Catholic

79%

Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan

71%

Emergent/Postmodern

64%

Neo orthodox

64%

Modern Liberal

50%

Charismatic/Pentecostal

46%

Classical Liberal

39%

Reformed Evangelical

21%

Fundamentalist

4%

What's your theological worldview?
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Everyone's Waiting

i watched the last episode of Six Feet Under tonight--left me feeling sad and complete and empty. Death was always a "character" in the show, and here we weren't left any pretensions that our characters escape the fate that awaits us all. It was beautiful to see everyone's final moments. What an idea for a finale. If you're a fan, and you want more---go to the HBO website, they have some neat stuff, including some "inside the script" things that are pretty cool, and the obits for the characters.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Lewis Center

I just took a survey here, it looks like a good site so I'm going to save it here for later. You can look at it too.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

The Ego has Landed

There aren't so many things as humbling as busting your ass in front of a bunch of teenagers.
This happened to me today: I was shooting hoops out behind the church and one of the balls flew over the chained link fence. When playing with Wesley the week before, I had simply lept the fence instead of walking all the way around. So, of course I think nothing about going for it again. Except this time, I didn't raise my feet high enough, and one of my shoes caught the top of the fence--which caused my upper torso to go flying toward the ground where my feet were supposed to be. I hit with a thud and a "uuugh" (which was the wind going out from my lungs) It didn't hurt, but still, it looked really stupid. I noticed one of the girls looking at another teenager like they really wanted to laugh, but didn't know if it was okay. So I started laughing, and then we all had a good laugh. I made a joke about "my ups" the next time I went up for a shot, and that got a few laughs too. Now the only thing is, my wrist really hurts.
The whole scenario got me thinking of embarassment. It has been a while since I've been embarassed. On the other hand, I don't really feel that embarassed. I more feel sorry for them because now they're probably going to think of me flopping over the fence when they see me, and that must be a hard thing to square with someone you should respect and admire. (I am their pastor, after all). In other words, I'll get over it and probably not remember it in a month or two, but can they ever again relate to me as a pastor without cringing in that embarassed for me, "wanting to laugh but not sure I should" memory?
Perhaps the ego hasn't landed quite yet in my case--They probably don't occupy much of their time or mental energy thinking about me anyway, I suppose. Of course, I do kind of get up and speak for 15 minutes in front of them every week. Of course, they are usually more concerned wiht their text messages than me anyway. Hmmmmm....Does this make sense? I took a pain pill because of my wrist!
Happy trails!

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Devil in Disguise


I decided not to go in this direction for my sermon, but it was a good page or so of information. If it sparks anything or fires the ole imagination, cheers!


We probably have diverse viewpoints about this figure in our faith tradition. Many of us probably don’t believe that evil has some personification, that perhaps Satan is some psychological projection of the evil inside us. Some of us no doubt believe in a real and tangible Devil who is actively trying to upend God’s designs for the universe. Perhaps you don’t believe in the Devil or even evil as a reality at all, but instead simply consequences for not aligning our will with God’s will.
I’m not sure there are any requirements for orthodoxy on the Devil. We don’t focus our beliefs in that direction. In some ways it really doesn’t matter. We pray to be led not into temptation, but delivered from Evil, but we don’t define what that Evil is like. Satan is a number of things in the Bible—and much of our scriptures were written in a time when the Jewish imagination had not yet conceived of “The Devil.”
But the Devil makes an appearance there in our scripture today. We hear about him and what the early Christian mind thought was his authority. In several places in the New Testament, the Devil, some spirit trapped between heaven and Earth, has jurisdiction over much of the world as we know it. Satan tempts Jesus with the power to rule over the entire earth in a political fashion, much like the people of Israel were expecting the Messiah to do. The Devil takes Jesus up on a high mountain and says to him, “I will give you all their authority and power, for it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I wish. So if you worship me, it will all be yours." Elsewhere, in 1 John 5:19, we hear “We know that we are children of God, and that the whole world is under the control of Satan.”
This must have been pretty apparent to the early Christian church people, who were hunted down by the authorities and tossed to the lions. It wasn’t hard for them to imagine who was behind it all, pulling the strings—it must’ve been the Adversary. The rulers of the nations seemed to be in collusion with the Evil forces of the Universe. They were to be feared and opposed as diligently as the Devil himself. Paul writes to the Ephesians, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world…”
I mention these things today because I believe it is important for us to examine our evolving relationship with Evil. The early church drew the battle lines—it was the Kingdom of Heaven against the Kingdoms of Earth. Have we evolved as a society? Have the Evil forces behind the governments of the world simply evaporated, moved into easier to identify realms? If one judged by the focus of the televangelists and Christian radio wonks, it would seem that Christians believed nowadays that Satan had changed address to Hollywood or the Halls of Science and Jesus himself had taken up residence in Washington!

Monday, February 26, 2007

I'm a geography geek, okay?


This is a version of the world map proportional to wealth. Cha-Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-eck it and more by clicking on the map.

Who will save your soul?

In a previous ministry setting, I heard that a minister who had served in my position had organized a mission trip to Mexico. On this particular mission trip, a house was constructed and participants took part in a Vacation Bible School. Also included in this mission trip was a nightly contest where the participants from the church where I now served would gather together and tally how many “souls they had saved” that day. A prize was given each night to the person who reported the highest number of “souls saved” by inviting the Mexicans to “accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior.” I must confess that hearing this story made me want to run to the bathroom and throw up.
This kind of contest provoked such a visceral reaction from me because I believe that it confuses God’s action with our own, and in so doing it amounts to idolatry. We are used to thinking of idolatry as bowing down to worship little figurines of Greek and Roman gods, as Paul encountered and wrote about in his ministry. However, we are in a much more subtle and deeper danger of idolatry. We are subject to a new cultural false deity—the Self. Any time we are engaged in mission, our work is to be a conduit for God’s action. It is impossible for humans to save their own soul, much less anyone else’s soul. That is instead God’s gift of grace. When we share the life changing power of the Gospel through work or word or song or prayer, the Spirit moves through us and creates the opportunity to open eyes to God’s grace. Far from being a “tally” that we can name and claim, our action on behalf of God should only be attributed to God, never to ourselves. If we confuse this issue, we risk idolatry.
This is one reason I am glad our church’s mission committee has planned a mission trip to Camp Egan this month. On March 22-24, we are going to be engaged in refurbishment and construction around the camp where so many district and conference activities take place. Participants in that mission trip mentioned above would, I suppose, need to find some other evening entertainments since there aren’t going to be any other people there at the camp to “witness to” besides ourselves—there wouldn’t be any souls to “save” and then tally in order to win a prize. But, this is probably a good thing. It allows us to learn a little bit about how we are used by God in mission.
The following weekend, Camp Egan will host the District Confirmation Retreat, when young people from all over the Muskogee District will gather to learn about God, the church, discipleship, grace, and their decision to follow Christ. The work that we will do the previous weekend will contribute to and enhance the ability for those kids to gather and learn. Who knows, a 13 year old kid may make the decision at that retreat to give their life to Christ and follow him, and our work will have contributed in some way to that kid’s experience—in short, Christ will turn our water into wine. This is no different than having an in depth conversation with someone who doesn’t know Christ and at the end of that conversation “convincing” that person that a life of faith is essential and life giving. In both examples of mission, God allows us to be conduits of His Grace.
I understand why the people on the mission trip to Mexico had such pride and sense of ownership involved in their experience of “saving souls.” It is an exciting and energizing experience to be used by God. If we refuse the temptation to put ourselves on a pedestal while involved in mission, we may see that God is saving our own soul through our work in mission as well as others.

Plastic Ocean


You can tell LA Times put a lot of work into this series on garbage in the Pacific. It is from last summer, but I was just recently reminded of the reality of the Eastern Garbage patch (floating plastic debris covering area twice the size of Texas). Give this some time:






Thursday, February 22, 2007

Lenten Funnies


Because we need a little chuckle to start off Lent....(identities obscured to protect from utter damnation)

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Pushing the Pulpit

The following post is from a blogger in CA who went to the same seminary as I did. I came across her post, and thought since I spent so much time responding to it, I should put it on my blog too.
From Endangered Species: Church
This morning I came across something in the United Methodist Newscope that caught my attention. The New York Times published an article on January 27, 2007, about how seminaries are having a tough time getting young graduates to go onto local church ministry. Apparently, students are not necessarily going to seminary to become ordained pastors. This has put the onus on seminaries to do more vocational counseling and might I say--nudging.
''We need to lead the horses to water, as it were,'' Dr. James Hudnut-Beumler, the dean of the divinity school at Vanderbilt University, said of what has become a common effort across faiths and denominations for seminaries to lean on their students -- ever so slightly -- to consider a pulpit job." (from the New York Times Article)
If students are not going to seminary to be a part of the pulpit-pastor mill, what on earth are they spending all that money doing?
This was something I had the pleasure of talking about with CST president Jerry Campbell. As we talked it became clear that many in my generation and younger are going to seminary to get the kind of faith training and exploration that used to happen in the local church. In fact, because the Church does not seem trustworthy, young people go to a place of trust (learning institutions are that for us) and spend thousands of dollars receiving high quality Christian Education.
While I do not believe that the sole purpose of seminary education is to pop out trained church leaders (that's a lofty goal!), I do think that as we examine a changing and emerging church, we need to challenge the seminary to do the same kind of examination.


Here's what I added to the discussion....




Good topic! A friend and I spent a few hours the other day wondering what it would be like if the church expanded the orders of ministry to include a "teaching" order. This could possibly be a way to keep a connection with all the young adults getting MDIVs and then pursuing more education in order to teach. The church could validate their calling and ask them to contribute in some way to the life of the church through a special "Rabbinical" order (that terminology may be confusing, so something else might be more appropriate) You get the idea. A possible "dollars and cents" impact of this idea could be more participation in the pension plan, insurance programs (that might end up killing us as the baby boomer pastors begin retiring) and who knows what else.
I was a student at CST and was encouraged to pursue my calling into a PH.D by one of the professors there, even though it was my intention to go into parish ministry (or perhaps campus ministry) This professor did have a keen awareness of my passion for teaching, but I decided that the parish probably needed ministers who felt called to teach as well. (Plus another 4-6 years of school didn't fit into my "family plan" at the time, nor will it ever, perhaps....though I'd really love to go). As it is now, I put "gasoline" in my tanks by offering frequent Bible studies, taking sermon prep and construction very seriously--and the fact that I'm appointed to a smallish parish gives me plenty of time for study. (Though I tend to end up playing with my son---hell, will I regret that on my deathbed? Yeah right!)
Basically, in a nutshell--Seminaries should be selling the idea to MDivs who are considering jumping ship into other degrees or careers that with the flooded field of college educators, they have a greater chance of teaching in the parish than in the academy anyway! And sooner! The idea that the parishioners dont' want serious and critical study opportunities is bunk. I find teaching in the church to be ultimately rewarding, even though I too felt the pull of the Ph.D instead of a pulpit.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

The coolest would be 62 year old ever

Happy Birthday!


As we do every year, today is the celebration for our brother Bob. He was a beautiful spark of humanity--One who was enraptured with the Spirit. He was authentic. (Just watch the attached video for the soul he lent to his performances.) he was unique--none like him at the time or since. He did what he could to make the world a better place. He left great music for the world to love for centuries. I am convinced that in 200 years, the world will love him as much as the world loves Beethoven now.